The Dream of the Devil and the Red Laptop

I rarely remember a dream and when I do I take the important parts of what I remember about it and research as to what it might mean to see if it has any bearing on what's going on in my own life.

The other night I dreamt about a guy, he was not my boyfriend, although we were involved very casually, on and off for a few years. I was in a bar; I have no idea of the location. I was sitting there talking to him, literally about nothing, the content of the conversation wasn't even apparent. All I know in this dream is when sitting there talking to him I had no interest or feelings toward him whatsoever. In fact I was very bored. I didn't even want social chit chat to be going on between us. There was a gap in the dream and the next thing I remember is walking past the table that I had been sitting at, his crazy demonic ex of a girlfriend is sitting next to him looking all proud and happy like the cat that got the cream, whilst he is sitting there arms folded in front of him at the table giving nobody any eye contact looking like he's literally made the worst mistake of his life. No words were exchanged, but it was obvious after going there time and time again before and it ending up in disaster that he had gone back to her again….I mean all of this in the space of me going to the bathroom. How crazy is that?

So I lean over the table (still not caring) and say to her dead on "excuse me I need my laptop." Two things I remember this laptop was an intense shiny red colour and she was wearing a red top. I however was looking fabulous head to toe in black. As I walked out I looked at her, winked whilst giving her one of my evil sly grins, and in my head I told her like that guy in Heroes that can read minds (yeah that one), “if you think you have one over on me luv, you are sorely mistaken.” The smile she had on her face soon vanished as she could see I was hardly bothered.

Why I dreamt about these 2 I have no idea. In real life this girl, I can hardly call her a woman was a problem for many people. And I swear she was either touched in the head or had a very very dark side to her, maybe both. She was bitter, twisted and a manipulative bitch. They were so on and off it wasn't even funny. It actually got to a point where they were engaged, but the boiling coffee pot was obviously giving off a strong smell and he woke up and called off the wedding. The whole debacle was pitiful. And at one point I thought it was sad yet funny at the same time. 3+ billion women in the world and that's the best you can do. Needless to say. Post break-up when we resumed communication, let's just say I NOW KNOW when he said he didn't speak to her again, he actually was. When I was in town and she popped up he'd make it seem like she was harassing him when I'd seen it for myself that the communication was actually quite normal and had been going on days prior to my August 2007 visit. Needless to say with my own personal BS going on, having this person not in my life on any sort of level whether it be the odd e-mail, visit or otherwise was for the better. Anything and everything connected to this person has since been deleted (e-mails) or thrown in the trash (mementos, pictures etc.) Regardless of the fact that they may have some decency as a person, they aren't decent enough for me to warrant having in my life on any scale. A waste of time if you ask me, but a life lesson well learnt.

So when I looked up red this is what I found from different sources, that I think pertains to the dream.

Red is an indication of raw energy, force, vigor, intense passion, aggression, power, courage and passion. The color red has deep emotional and spiritual connotations. Red is also the color of danger, shame, sexual impulses and urges.

Red is an active, affective colour, full of passion and emotion. It is also the colour of blood and fire. Intense, red can also indicate hatred. Red also means sin, rage and the devil. Dark red is a symbol of passion, greed, energy and anger. Red can mean luck, joy, happiness, energy, action, but also hate, blood, greed, irritability and will power. As the color of blood, red is a symbol of life, but also may be death (an end to something in your life).

To see or use laptop in your dream, suggests that you need to be able to reach out and communicate with others in any circumstance.

Black symbolizes the unknown, unconscious, danger, mystery, darkness, death, mourning, hate or malice.

Well I don’t want to communicate with either of them so that’s straight out of the window. And it’s no secret to anyone that knows about that back in the day situation I couldn’t stand the girl to the point where if I saw her again, I’d whoop her ass and not care about the consequences. For me personally I think the colour red (me possessing a red item and her wearing one) was significant. It signified everything the situation was with him, who I am, who she is, and what I perceived her to be. The meaning about it signifying death (an end to something) was quite eye opening also as it signified the situation in the present which has been this way for quite a while. Dead and non-existent. As much as the person (the guy) is still alive and well, emotionally I’m detached from the person to the point that it actually feels like the past didn’t even happen.

If that’s so right, then I didn’t need a dream to tell me what I already knew. Don’t care, won’t care, but I’m glad it was reinforced that whatever happens in my life going forward, I’m not affected by people or situations in my past. In dream and reality, I’ve walked away and closed the door behind me leaving whoever to get on with whatever.