Thoughts Of The Day

• Ever been angry about something which is well and truly your fault? You make dumb, stupid decisions which are risky as f***? I'm mad at myself…like Joe Jackson mad. If I could clone me and have a fight with my other self, I'd make sure I'd knock the sh** out of her for being such a dumb prick.
• The only reason I came into work today was for the money. Being a contractor I get paid for when I am here. Made no sense to stay home and crank up the heating…more expense.
• Did I really read on Twitter someones car got stolen, and they couldn't decide which was worse, their car being gone or their Rihanna album?
• No Rihanna album is worth buying or crying over. Download that sh** for free on-line, and burn it onto a CD!
• Speaking of albums, like the movies of 2010 a lot of them have sucked big time. I haven't even got the energy to download 'Pink Friday' for free and see what all the fuss is NOT about. I'm sure I will at some point.
• Why are black folks chanting what Rolling Stone magazine said about Nicki Minaj being the new Queen of Hip-Hop? Its Rolling Stone magazine. Someone needs to roll up a copy of it and smack you upside the head for endorsing that mess.
• So many blogs to write, so little time. **Lazy roll of the eyes**
• There are some girls outta road, whose lacefront wigs are coming down so low on their foreheads, that they are looking like a winter hat minus the bobble in the middle.
• Oh Lord have mercy! Just read a tweet from @LetsGoDeeper time-line that says ‘1 in 5 US divorces involve Facebook.’ Probably because some men have a whole heap of females disguised as friends who they're shagging and get caught out when the bitch starts with, “I miss you and love you so much” on their wall!
• Facebook just makes their scandalous behaviour more easy to track. If the Internet didn't exist those 1 in 5 would be doing their sh** via other means.
• Why bother get married if you’re gonna f*** around? Just why? **sigh**
• Some ex-boyfriend thinks he can buy my friends affection with money. I guess he didn't know her after all. The cheek of it! 
• Funny…what she wanted of him to make the relationship work cost NOTHING but time and attention. THAT'S BLOODY FREE!
• Some men are funny. You don't want a gold digger, but will pull out that credit card to try and buy a woman. Just spreading that sh** around like it's gonorrhea.
• I don't know if it's the cold weather but I'm in a ‘I will cut a mutha’ mood today.
• OMG at the rudeness of some people yesterday. Talk about dog eat dog. It was like a scene out of a disaster movie at Victoria train station last night.
• It's OK anyone thinks they can be bouncing, shoving and pushing me during this bad weather, road blocks and crap transport has another thing coming. 
• I'm going to see if I can post this blog from my BlackBerry. Never tried it before, and can't access Blogger from work, only Wordpress. [Tried…didn't work!]
• Might even shift my blog to Wordpress as it goes, but every time I have the intention of doing so, I just can't be bothered.
• Is it wrong that right now I have no intention of wanting to give up smoking? It’s my only vice. Serves as a bad mood fixer, as well as it being now a bad habit.
• I guess I already know the answer to that. I've gone cold turkey before. I guess I can again.
• Girls who aspire to be a Barbie. A little note to you…ladies and women you are not!
• Barbie's ya know!!! KMT [that's Kiss My Teeth] for those that don't know.
• I'm switching by the end of this week, out with the 9000 in with the 9800. BlackBerry that is. I can get close to £100 for my old Bold handset, which is a bonus as I got it as a free upgrade.
• End of the day and I'm f**ked off! I'm not even going to run my mouth about it because I'm in ignorant mode right about now. In this mind state I cannot be responsible for the words coming out of my mouth.
• I think my kindness is being taken for weakness. My memory is very long. Trust!
• My tolerance levels should be at ZERO, as they have been extremely low for some years now. Extremely low!
• If I've said it once, I've said it a thousand times. Facebook, Twitter and this blog does not mean that you know me. It's always the people who I've never even met in my life or met one or two times that want to act like they know E.V.E.R.Y. facet to my entire existence, just because they have access to a computer.
• 24 days till sh**y Christmas and 31 days till New Year. To all those that have my phone number but hasn't called or text me in 3-6 months, save yourself a FREE text, come Christmas and New Years and remove it. Please and thank you.
• Tired of those mass Happy Christmas/New Year texts you get from people that don't even call you to say hi at any other time during the year.
• I had to go through my phone contacts and delete a whole load of people I haven't called in 6 months. If I haven't called you in or around that time, chances are I don’t really care and won’t be anytime soon.
• Patois [pronounced pat-wa] is a Jamaican dialect/pidgin. No one speaks Jamaican. Jamaicans speak English. They may speak patois [the dialect] and will have a Jamaican accent. Get it?
• I have to give a Twitter shout out to @spiritdstrength. If you’re on Twitter follow him [if he accepts you, that is] he’s a hoot, and keeps me smiling and laughing all day. Jamaican and Montserrat background, British brotha who is always bruckin out the patois and hilarious with it. One of the ‘Twitter After Dark’ crew who don’t know about dem bedtime either. Big up GT! A real treasure! But don’t get it twisted he will keep it real with you too! He will chant his Buddhist chant, then be telling someone about their clart five minutes later. 
• It’s World AIDS Day today. Be aware. Be safe. Get tested regularly.
• Visit a clinic to get a blood test. But get tested! Remember it takes 3-6 months for HIV to show up in your system. Get educated about the facts! http://www.worldaidsday.org
• When was the last time you were tested? If it's been a long time, get on the case and do it now!
• Actress Tasha Smith said today on Twitter, "There is POWER in knowing your status." Make your appointment, attend, get the results.

Thoughts Of The Day

• I’m so tired of people knowing nothing about personal space in London on public transport. I ask you politely to move, even saying please and you want to get an attitude? Only until I've moved from my leaning position to standing straight up, dude realised he was messing with a taller-than-him-cussing woman and realised he messed with the wrong one. 
• I’ll be on the same train tomorrow in the same carriage. Let his ass act the fool again!
• To the Northern Line, it’s hot already! Why was the air conditioning blowing out hot air this morning, but in the dead of winter the railings are hella cold to the touch?
• I cannot stop playing Eminem’s Recovery album. So many people still riding Drake and that lame ass album. I can honestly say ‘Thank Me Later’ was the most over hyped, long, overdue piece of crap.
• Eminem has some issues [shoot don’t we all] but there is no denying he is one talented mofo.
• Is Nicki Minaj on some Drake ish with the ‘I can’t decide whether I want to be a rapper or a singer flex?’ I peeped her latest video for…I can’t even remember the name of the single, but made a Scooby Doo ‘huh?’ at the following line [which I don’t remember but sourced from the net]…. Oh it’s called ‘Your Love’ “Anyway I think I met him in the sky. When I was a Geisha he was a Samurai .Somehow I understood him when he spoke Thai”
• Samurai’s are from Japan. People in Japan speak Japanese. People from Thailand speak Thai. One more reason to dislike Nicki Minaj. She’s not intelligent.
• I’m tired of Rhianna being featured on tracks as well as Ms Minaj. ‘Love The Way You Lie’ by Eminem being one of em. It seems like it takes an eternity for her to sing her damn hook.
• Where is Noel Clarke? Since his Twitter and blog rant he’s been M.I.A.
• Something tells me from Adam Deacon’s tweets last week he may have read my blog or @madnewsblog that linked to my story on here. Oh well, you have a problem with my piece e-mail address is to the top, right hand corner.
• With regards to that blog, never said it was fact. The way in which it was written lets the reader decide for themselves. Hence all of the questions and assumptions.
• Still learning to juggle my time better. Says LondonDiva writing this up to post later whilst she’s at work.
• The hypocrisy by LHCF moderators kills me. [Blog post to follow at some point].
• Did you sign the MAC Rodarte petition? If not just head here?
• Speaking of petitions did you sign the UK Film council petition also?
• If you’re twisting your neck asking “did you?” with regard to the petitions, the hell I did sign em! Took 30 seconds a piece.
• Some of these people are too nasty! How are you going to go out, buy your lunch, come back and spray sanitizer on your hands before eating?
• I go out and come back. I Wash my hands. I Don’t let my hands touch the tap whilst turning it off. Use paper towel to hold open the door. Sanitizer, then proceed to eat my food.
• What kind of punk are you to be already sitting at home behind a computer and on top of that sit behind the name ‘anonymous’ when leaving negative comments? You can’t even make up a simple username like‘abcd?’ I’d at least have an ounce of respect for you if you weren’t such a pussy.
• It’s nice to get the odd blog appreciation comment. I appreciate you back! And thank you!
• I get some not so nice comments. What do I do? Laugh! Literally I do. You’re still on my site reading the same stuff that pisses you off. I got you by the blogger balls. Even when you can’t stand me you’re still here reading my content sucking away at your time. And if you’re one of em reading this, I gotchu again. Like a low self esteemed repeatedly cheated on spouse…you keep coming back for more.
• I don’t have haters. I hate the term. You just don’t like me…and that’s OK.
• Am I a masochist? I swear I get some sort of kick out of people not liking me. Warped I know. I’m too thick skinned for my own good.
• I used to say when I was younger that I didn’t care if someone said to my face they didn’t like me. My response was always the same “Good. One less person for me to spend my energy liking. I can spread it around for the quality people already in my life.”
• Never had a ‘beg a friend’ mindset. I don’t want too many people liking me. [Sounds crazy I know] I don’t get people like that who have to constantly feel validated by people liking them. I love the hell outta me, I got my friends and family. I’m good. I’m set. It’s all about the quality, NOT the quantity. I have quality in my life. Trust…weeded out a few, but what’s left is stellar.
• Some of you gotta stop spouting your personal business on Twitter. My memory is good. I remember what he said to you, when he said it, when you made up and when you just had sex, and I’ve never met you in my life. You’re not making us jealous with your indirect “I gotta man” tweets. We all know what the next line of that song was “I'm not tryna hear that see...what’s your man gotta do with me?” Seriously though, keep your private life P.R.I.V.A.T.E.
• Whilst on the Twitter tip, I said it the other day, and I’ll say it again fellas [on my timeline] THANK YOU for not spilling all your damn biz about your girl, arguments, sex life, etc on Twitter. I have a male/female mix and the women are the absolute worst. Especially the single women. Married women I follow are very private and quite rightly so.
• Don’t get mad if you spill your business on Twitter then someone asks you about your personal business. Your relationship isn't all that private anymore when you choose to spill every intimate detail.
• So you’re here [at work] till 8pm, that doesn’t make you a martyr that makes you dumb as hell.
• Why does this man here put on a fake Indian accent when on conference calls? I’m gonna buss out in the Patios next time...watch!
• Read this on Twitter made me laugh at the thought “What's worse, telling sum1 off in person & tripping as u walk away or telling sum1 off on email/chat & misspelling the key words?”
• Definitely tripping, then I would turn and cuss off the raised concrete in the pavement before walking off vex!

Thoughts Of The Day

• Prayin’ by PlanB has been getting a lot of play on my ipod this week. 

• Is that N-Dubz documentary over yet? It needs to be.
• I’m learning the art of not keeping people who annoy me on my Twitter timeline. Thank fuck @tnyash is gone, that’s too much basic bitchassness over a period of months for one #bitter person like myself to take. I must be a masochist to have kept some of them around so long in the first place. Something about liking the pain of reading tweet after tweet of stupidity. Yep I’m a masochist.
• I don’t do subliminal; I like people to know exactly how I feel about em, whether online or off.
• The people in London really need to learn to get a move on during rush hour.
• I’m becoming incredibly pissed off with women wearing high heeled shoes on their way to work. Whilst you’re trotting, you’re slowing me down from Moorgate station to the office dearies. Do as I do…trainers for train and tube, 5 Inch platform heels in the office.
• My boss is Nigerian, she pronounces assume [a-zooooom] and every time she says it, it amuses me. She says it so many times a day.
• The people at this job have NO personality. They really don’t. Oh well I do.
• Gotta love my mum, she came over yesterday and dropped over some birthday money, Prince interview from the Daily Mirror, Prince CD, 2 alcopops, fruit juice, Butterkist popcorn, a stick of rock, packet of Cadbury’s chocolate Eclairs, Cadbury’s chocolate chunk cookies, Colgate toothpaste, Dettol antibacterial spray, water softener for the washing machine and a box of tissues. **confused look** At least she brings me over stuff I need. I don’t ask, but every once in a while she’ll drop a lil ‘care package’ off at my house. It’s quite cute actually.
• Birthday present arrived yesterday courtesy of UPS and gift wrapped…ALL 8 seasons of Girlfriends!! I was told I could have anything I wanted. Well…that’s what I wanted so that’s what I got. I’m really not used to being asked what I want, and on top of that don’t want to take the piss.
• I am really looking forward to Inception on Friday. REALLY looking forward to it. Christopher Nolan is outstanding. I’ve seen ALL of his films except one from 1999 and he hasn’t disappointed me yet.
• I have MASTERED the art of being VERY selective in who I help and lend advice to. In that aspect I am NOT AS NICE as I used to be.
• Don’t USE ME because you want me to for something to get ahead. In the words of Janet Jackson “what have you done for me lately” to even warrant that? How well do I know you? Do you have my phone number? Have you helped give me advice or support in any way? No to all or some of that??? Please find a nice concrete path and simply Jog on!!!
• I know people should help others out of the goodness of their heart, and I do the little things without thought sometimes, but bigger things….forget about it. Learnt my lesson.
• Am I the only one that does no work at work? BBM a group on my BB and they said the same thing. All chilling, reading forums and blogs. [I feel a spin-off blog coming].
• Why are comedians on Twitter NOT funny, but the regular folks are?
• If there were 2 of me [perish the thought] and I read my tweets on Twitter, I’d think I was a miserable bitch. Truth is I’m not, quite the fool and joker actually always having a laugh, but really don’t care how that comes across to others. Know when to be serious. Know when to joke around.
• I cannot believe there was a tribute page to Raoul Moat on Facebook. I hope they’ve taken that shit down. We really are living in crazy times.
• Are we Londoners getting the sun and warmth back anytime soon, or was that it?
• Thank God RIM is coming out with a BlackBerry 9800. A touch screen and FULL QWERTY keyboard in one. Really wanted to get a touch screen BlackBerry, but wasn’t fully convinced at the Storm 2 and knew I’d miss my QWERTY keypad. They must have heard my subliminal thoughts. I’m due for an upgrade in September. Please let this be out and please let this be on T-mobile. It will be my 5th BlackBerry handset.

• I remember back in the days when I had my first BlackBerry and everyone mocked me for having one. Those same people jumped on it as soon as their network provided it and the curve came out. OMG looking at it now. I still remember the excitement of having it. Now it looks like a piece of crap!

• Either you have problems with your Twitter or you have a serious love/hate relationship with me. I get an e-mail EVERY TIME someone follows and see the same names popping up time and time again. What is it, I say something offensive you unfollow, then you have sleepless nights, miss my wit and want me back on your timeline again?? Just leave for good if that’s the case. All this back n forth business.
• I’m so tired of this man-boy at work talking about the ‘CORE’ business and saying the word ‘ENTITY’ so many times.
• I don’t get notified when people block/unfollow me. I don’t see the point, especially when those people send an automated tweet to their timeline notifying them “I just unfollowed 57 people using xxxxxxxxx”
• I like The Twilight Saga. A LOT.
• As long as Taylor Lautner is OVER the age of consent I feel NO WAY in expressing how fine he is.
• I can’t do kid’s films, but may see Toy story 3.
• Harry Potter doesn’t interest me, although I did give one of the films a chance. Saw the last one and wish I hadn’t.
• Christopher Nolan is doing Superman. Excited if it’s anything like his Batman adaptations. Superman needs to be less comic book and a lot more darker.
• My fave Superman film was when there were 2 of them, and one was real bad! Which one I cannot remember.
• I cannot stand Nandos. Over rated tripe! Some chips with seasoned powder on it and some char grilled chicken that’s not even seasoned that well. Black folks trippin on that stuff like they’ve discovered the Holy Grail. I really wonder what they ate growing up, in West Indian and African households to be rating that mess?
• If anyone invites me to Nandos. I pass. I’m not setting foot in another one. Yes, that’s how much I despise it.
• It’s not here in the UK, but Pappadeaux…that is my joint for regular eating out times!!!
• You know you spend too long on Twitter when you think to yourself whilst brushing your teeth “I wonder where X is? Haven’t seen them on Twitter in a while.” Never met a ton of these people in my life ya know, and I’m wondering their whereabouts!
• I wonder who the next outed cheating celebrity is going to be?
• I am NOT even watching Big Brother. I started but then decided to stop. Why does Davina keep hyping it as the best ever? I know she’s contracted to, but seriously woman….STOP! This is hardly it going out with a bang.
• Just seen a tweet about hating on others [spinoff coming] Tired of these whiny ass bitches talking about ‘hating on folks’
• Kelis’ ‘Acapella’ is really growing on me. But man does she have an ugly singing face. Looks like she’s straining to take a dump.
• If everybody on the planet were black JLS would NOT be successful.
• Why is Chipmunks head so big? Literally! Not talking about in the ego sense of things.
• I heard Aston Martin Music by Rick Ross ft. Drake and Chrisette Michelle…why is Drake making those sounds on that track? He doesn’t sound good at all.
• I don’t get the hype about Sophie Kinsella books. Utterly, utterly dry and boring.
• ‘Black Is The New Bitch’ was doing the Twitter rounds for about…oh…3 days. Haven’t heard it mentioned since. Was that book the quickest and newest fad? I hear they’re looking to do a film. Should I pick up this book and have a read? Please don’t use words like ‘hilarious’ and ‘amazing’ to describe it to me as most things usually are NOT!
• Drake's album...abismal. Diggy's mixtape is far better than that long awaited mess Drizzy Drake put out.

Thoughts Of The Day

• I always start these 'Thoughts of The Day' blog posts with about 3 thoughts, then it all turns into a long ass blog fest.
• Ever have so many things to do, but have no idea where to start?
• I refrained for a VERY long time NOT to listen to Drake. I saw the video for 'For Your Love' and something strange came over me. I downloaded a ton of his songs, and even started to find the slow looking one rather cute.
• Can everyone in the music industry stop doing collabos with Nicki Minaj like it's somehow 'EXCLUSIVE' and 'ORIGINAL' that you got her on your track. This "......... featuring Nicki Minaj" is getting old and tired.
• From what I have heard of her, I'm not impressed. With references to Cowabunga and repeating the same word like she's stuttering just to fill up valuable MP3 time. Nope not impressed.
• And what's up with her eyes? She look possessed.
• If you have to go on record to state "I'm not a sell out." Chances are you probably already have sold out and a lot of people are calling you out on it, with your watered down poppy sounding dance tunes Mr Rascal.
• What is it with Black UK 'rappers' on this 'dance music sounding, watered down for mainstream because white folks may not get us tip?'
• I really do wonder about some people on Facebook who have kids. No matter what time of day, night or early hours of the morning it is you log on and they're playing some stupid game with a new high score. The next thing you know, their Facebook status message will be telling the whole world how their child can't read, write, is acting up, being rude and can't for love nor money figure out why. That's cause mummy don't pay your lil ass no damn attention Frodo!
• If you're a parent to a young child/children and read MORE Facebook status messages and/or tweets on Twitter than reading words in a book to your kids, in this element you're failing as parent.
• If you are a parent to young children who got mad at that last thought, it probably applies to you. You can get mad at me, but you need to be getting mad at yourself. I'm not a responsible parent, because I'm NOT a parent. Back away from the computer or your handheld device, go read to/with your kid and spend time playing a game together over fucking Farmville or Mafia Wars.
• Had the pleasure of meeting, hugging, taking a pic with and getting my DVD signed by Adam Deacon "OI Mysize!" from Kidulthood and Adulthood. Don't be fooled by the screwface characters you've seen him play, Adam is a sweetheart, very approachable, smells good and gives those hugs that would make you want to throw his lil ass in a room and rip his clothes off. *composes one's self* I thought he was much younger than 27 though.
• Couldn't get a pic with Noel, but he signed my DVD too. Too many fans surrounding the man.
• I found what Noel said pretty inspiring, toward the end of the Q&A. You can listen to that here.
• 4321 is out today.
• Do you think writing 2 books simultaneously, setting up an on-line store, and looking to get a product created and launched is too much work for anybody at one time? Hmmm maybe but I don't give a fuck.
• Keep your eye on the prize.
• I have a semi-written blog review on SATC2, but am still in no hurry to get it out. The movie has only been out for 5 minutes and the world wide web is saturated with all of them. Not interested in reading all of them, only my own.
• Please don't ask me what the books I'm writing are about or anything else. When you see them then you'll know. Everything is a work in progress. Some will be faster projects than others, some will be slower. Focus on your shit, and tell me when it's out. I'm not in the habit of chatting much of my business, contrary to what you may believe. 
• But saying that, there are a few people who CAN ask me about all that stuff and they know who they are. If you have to say "I'm not sure if I'm one of those people?" then you probably aren't.
• Anything that you see out there on this blog or any public forum that I've written from 1998-2010 is down to PERSONAL choice. Nothing that you find out there on the web can ever be used against me or thrown in my face. I'm mindful of what I write, always have been, and think about the future consequences of my actions. Trust me I do. 
• Too many people chat their damn business, then when it comes back to haunt them, they wanna act all shamed faced.
• It also helps having an "I don't give a fuck" attitude as well. I'm not easily embarrassed or ashamed of anything I say or do.
• Me having a blog, being my 'friend' on Facebook, or a follower on Twitter doesn't mean you know me. Let's not get it twisted folks.
• You do realise Lady Gaga is really popular because of her physical image don't you? The hair, the clothes, the awkwardness. Some of her songs could be sung by any pop/dance artist and you wouldn't really be into it like you are with her stuff. She's alright though. I suppose.
• I love me. Not changing or toning it down for anybody. Tried it once and VERY long time ago. Didn't like it. I'm not a conformist or a people pleaser. Just so you know.
• Vote for me in the Black Weblog Awards 2010. If you don't *shrug* it's alright. I'm not gonna lose any sleep over it. If you do, then I appreciate it, and thank you. You don't have to vote for someone in every category. Vote for yourself too [if you have a blog] I did. Hey, if no one's gonna big you up then you may just have to do that for you yourself.
• And yes, I'm black if you didn't know that already.
• All you heffers looking to get liberated by watching, Samantha Jones, Carrie Bradshaw-Preston, Miranda Hobbs, Charlotte York-Jewish last name, need a wake up call slap on your vaginas. [NO I WILL NOT BE THE ONE TO DO THAT]. Liberate your damn self and stop looking to four fictional characters to do that on your behalf.
• If a man wants to give you the world. Don't be a fool...let him and say thank you in the process. But don't be a bitch and try to take him for everything he has on the flip side.
• If you really know about your electronics, and I'm no expert, you'd know that Apple ipads are NOT the first tablets to go on the market. They are just the most popular. Huge difference. So all those Apple/ipad lovers getting mad at other companies doing their own version of the table "SITCHOASSDOWN" Some of you act like Apple invented air and H2O as well.
• I'll be waiting for RIM [Research in Motion] creators of Blackberry to release a tablet. Makes sense being a BB owner to keep it in the family. I really hope they have a BBM feature on it. Rumours are it will be released before the end of the year.
• Speaking of BBM wanna add me? Send your PIN to iamlondondiva@gmail.com You don't want to? I will not be in a corner rocking myself to sleep as a result.
• How do you turn up at a business networking event with no business cards?
• The word 'epic' still hasn't died yet?
• I don't like football, but I can tolerate it during World Cup time.
• Errr good luck England????
• Sinkholes are not signifying the end of the world. Google is indeed your friend. Use it. These things are not new and quite common. My Goodness, a hurricane or an earthquake happens and people are expecting the second coming of Christ, drop to their knees and start praying. It shouldn't take for a natural disaster to get your ass ready for the second coming. For all you know the world could be at perfect peace, sun shining and birds singing, then BAM Judgement Day arrives when you least expect it.
• Don't you just hate waiting 2 years for a sequel, only to be disappointed as hell?? Iron-Man and SATC I'm talking about you!
• Still not happy about Megan Fox NOT being in Transformers 3. I'm just not!
• Is Diggy Simmons feeling himself a lil too much? Love his mixtape though? 
• I refuse to RESPECT you if Nicki Minaj or anyone like her is your role model. Are high profile women like Michelle Obama, Oprah or Maya Angelou not good enough in 2010 or something? Women that have made something of themselves and stood for something they believe in. I mean somebody help me out here please.
• As much as I can't understand her very well. I love Tiny [from Tiny & Toya] she seems real humble and down to earth. I feel the show did a lot of good for her. I no longer feel or see her as 'just T.I.'s girl.' Please don't get this thought confused with me thinking Tiny is my role model. She's not.
• Anyone else think Lala Vazquez and Keri Hilson resemble one another?
• Speaking of Lala she recommended her acting coach or something like that on Twitter. What in the hell has Lala been in? That's one acting coach that would NOT be getting my money and he/she should not be getting yours.
• Surround yourself with like minded individuals. It also helps if those individuals are supportive of your goals, dream and aspirations and not afraid to give you a helping hand or a push.
• I remember every person that's helped me out somehow. Whether its from prayers, good thoughts, re-tweeting something, being there on the end of the phone, helping me out via e-mail, sending me messages on Facebook...whatever. I remember EVERYONE. 
• I also remember the ones close to me that haven't.
• If you're trying to better yourself please take note. There are a lot of people out there who you THINK will have your back, but WON'T. Don't let that get you down, don't force them to be on your team. Use that as a means to go even harder, to one day show them "I told you so." I've got more support from people I hardly know than the ones I've grown up with.
• If people are genuine about supporting you [especially the ones closest to you] they'll do it out of love and not because you've nagged their ass 24/7 to do so.
• Expect nothing from anyone. Expect a whole lot more from yourself.
• Your goal may not to be famous, but to just be successful within your own right. Everyone has their own standards of success or fame. Pay CLOSE ATTENTION to who is blowing up your phone right now. Who is inviting you out. Who is making plans with you. Who is helping you out with your broke self. Who are constantly believing in you. Chances are when you get from 'Point A' to 'Point B', the same people who screened your calls, ignored your texts and emails will be the same ones trying to get a free ride on your coat tails thinking you're now somebody. You've always been somebody, you just weren't enough for them when you were at 'Point A ville'
• I'm done thinking about stuff for now. Peace!

Thoughts Of The Day

• I know now what my Pluto dream that I had last week means. Someone who is very good at dream interpretation broke it down for me and also knew a ton of stuff about what the different planets signified. Thinking about the dream now, it all makes sense.
• Every time this man gets up from the chair it makes a loud bang like a car backfiring scaring the crap out of me. He’s always cursing “this bloody chair!” No I think it has something to do with the fact you weigh more than the chair can handle.
• Same dude has a gym membership which he hasn’t used in a year and is still paying for at £47 a month. I heard him call his bank yesterday to set up a standing order to save £50 a month. Now you tell me what the hell is wrong with that picture right there?
• I’ve been in ‘I can be bothered’ mode for a little while, and that includes things to do as well as people. I’m cool with that; right now it works for me.
• Will I finish this book by tomorrow? I have about 200 pages left to go. We’ll see I suppose.
• Work is dead. Thank God for the free eBooks I have on this PC to read.
• Istanbul next month. Praise the Lord Hallelujah! I get to leave this country and experience a new one to add to my places I’ve travelled to list. There will be 15 of us going. Should be very interesting indeed.
• I’m not doing Lent. Never have. Never will. There you go; I’m giving up lent for 40 years. That will take me right through to 70!
• I don’t like cryptic attention seeking people. Don’t come to me without coaxing that you got stuff going on and want to act all secretive about the details. I’m not interested. It's like saying "I've got a secret, but I can't tell you." while I've been sitting here minding my business all along.
• Great! I had another vivid dream which literally had woken me up around 3 or 4am this morning, and left me totally repulsed. After looking into it means I ‘signify aspects of myself that are dirty and negative, which I believe to be undesirable and repulsive.’ O_O nice!
• I still don’t get that there are 3 people that I know of here who have been here for more than 30 years.
• 25 years on and I still miss my grandma.
• I’m hoping Cheryl Cole leaves her husband sometime this year!
• They say ‘And this too shall pass.’ Really? When? In 2042?
• I need a sweetie fix. Thank goodness the canteen is about15 steps away from me.
• The only problem is I don’t know which sweets I want.
• Jay-Z headlining at the Wireless festival in July? *runs around in a lunatic circle chasing my imaginary tail.*
• Funny how black folks want to scream ILLUMINATI whenever they see Jay-Z, Rihanna or Beyonce, but love, worship and praise that demonic looking Lady Gaga.
• You know people believe in that mess from watching a 7 minute You Tube Video but are the first one’s to say you can’t believe what they say in the papers. Is You Tube gospel now?
• I really do hope that those obsessed with having the latest MAC brush, or spending frivolous amounts on clothes are putting the same amount of effort in putting money away in their kid’s college fund.
• I am SO proud of the fact that I do not know or have never listened to a Nicki Minaj track. The only thing I’ve heard her on in Mariah’s ‘Up Out my Face’ remix which was so unnecessary. Due to her presence on that track I won’t be listening to that again.
• This black Barbie Harajuku mess needs to stop. Barbie is white, and Harajuku sounds Japanese. Get your head straight. We have Michelle Obama as the First Lady in the White House and this is the best you can aspire to be? The word ashamed springs to mind.
• It’s so ironic how some black women would never dream of giving their child a white Barbie doll for not wanting to put an unrealistic image in their head of what beauty is about, but go out of their way to look like a black version of a white doll.
• I didn’t think it was possible for a human being to look like Quagmire from Family Guy, but it is, and he works here. Big cheeks n all.
• At least the sun is shining today.
• I took one look at the Australia, New Zealand and Asia map and thought “if I want to go to all of these places in one go I’m thinking at three months to do it in.” AT LEAST!
• I’m definitely planning Aspen for November though. That is an overdue must!
• Great! Now I have ‘Up Out my Face’ in my head on repeat. “When I break ,I break” ain’t that the truth! Never a truer lyric sung Mrs Carey Cannon.
• There is this black woman that works here, pigeon toed, wears heels she cannot walk in and has an ass the size of the continent of Africa. You can’t help but look as she walks past. I’m annoyed she thinks being pigeon toed and struggling in heels is a good look, whilst you’re ass is waddling about your hips. One of these days I’m gonna tell her to stop it.
• Speaking of pigeon toed, can Alicia Keys stop stretching out her arms when performing. I know she can’t dance but this is all that chick seems to do [and I called her a chick on purpose, she’s no woman to me. You know why, don’t act brand new now!]
• I am still pissed at that We Are The World 25 crap.
• I listened to some Aaliyah the other day. Still haven’t found the part where she’s singing that’s supposed to blow me away. If you know of a track leave the title in the comments section. [I’m deadly serious].
• Where is Joss Stone?
• For all of those that think Lady Gaga is original, there’s always someone who’s been there done that. They call her Grace Jones! Now that’s GENUINE crazy!
• If you didn’t already know, KMT = Kiss My Teeth. If you don’t know what that is, here’s what you do. Go up to a black woman and ask them if you can touch their hair. Chances are 99.9% of them will cuss you out then made a long drawn out sound with their mouth. That right there is a kiss of the teeth.
• Just read a tweet from a Londoner “Man on bus had a cat on a leash sitting on his shoulder like a parrot. I wish I had a picture.” People really don’t believe me when I say there are crazy people in this city. They think we’re all polite, demure and speak the Queen’s English. So the opposite.
• My friend says love is about taking a leap of faith. I’m alright kicking back with my feet up thanks. Leaping, jumping, running is tiring.
• I have my April holiday time booked; money ready so may take a look on lastminute.com and go off on a late deal at the last minute. Never done that before. I think it’s about time I did.
• I LOVE IT when my mum tells stories of me as a baby/toddler. It seems like I have ALWAYS been the same. Not putting up with any crap and speaking my mind.
• My younger sister on the other hand, I don’t remember her speaking much, just eating an awful lot. She was like a human dustbin.
• My aunt has a better memory though and told me the one where I was about 2 or 3 and got into it with my mum, so I got this little tiny suitcase put about 2 things in it and told her I was off to grandma’s. Oh I went and my mum walked behind me as I stomped off to grandma and granddad’s house. I arrived unpacked my 2 pieces of clothes and stayed the week. My aunt said I didn’t bat an eyelid when my mum left. Sounds just like me. Had enough, pack the suitcase and go!
• Women are more scandalous than men #imjustsayin
• Yes I did just do a twitter hash tag on that last one.
• Still haven't decided on what sweets I want.

Thoughts Of The Day

• What is my obsession with the Century Gothic font on Word, Excel and E-mail?
• My mind is so blank right now; there aren’t many thoughts in there.
• I still and always will hate Valentines Day.
• Tired of people like Ray J and anything with a last name Kardashian.
• I am so glad I have nipped procrastination in the bud. I realise you can only stop doing it when you WANT TO STOP DOING IT.
• So Lil Wayne is going to jail. GOOD! Looking like a creature masked as a human being is a crime within itself.
• I am obsessed with travel. I intend to make this year as full of it as possible even if it means longer weekend breaks to explore new places.
• It will have to be drawn up in my wedding vows that my husband is adventurous and has the same desire to travel and I do. I can’t and won’t sit still. Life is too short; the world is a big and beautiful place.
• Oh Lord at this black man in my office and his accent. Black people who speak like Del Boy and Rodney irk the hell out of me.
• Today is a much better day than yesterday. Bastard devil trying to steal my joy! I took it RIGHT back!
• Well at least it took me 39 days into 2010 for me to have a bad day. Before then it would have been everyday or every 2 days.
• Looking at my ‘to-do-list’ for tonight. *downs the coffee*
• Can February please slow down? Damn!!
• I had a dream about the planet Pluto. The top half was cut off and multi-coloured sea shells were visible. When I looked again it looked like multi-coloured brain matter. I woke up itching like a mutha. I’m so disgusted by that. I want to take another shower. *itches*
• Why they hell was I dreaming about Pluto anyway?
• I don’t even want to know what that dream meant.
• One of the following NEEDS to play at the Super bowl half-time show next year: Linkin Park, Jay-Z, Bon Jovi or Kings of Leon.
• I personally think Jay-Z would be incredible!
• The Who sucked! The last great half-time show was back in 2007 with Prince playing the awesome mash up of Hendrix’s All Along the Watchtower/Foo Fighter’s Best of You in his set. Sheer brilliance! That recording can not be found anywhere. The only version I have is from Howard Stern’s radio show with them talking all over it. I don’t event think it can be found online anywhere. Prince is strict when it comes to his material online. If it’s up, it will be taken off in 5 minutes.
• Tired of the sex obsessed on my Twitter timeline. Please get into a meaningful relationship. When it’s meaningful you don’t chat your personal business to a bunch of strangers.
• Tired of those who blab LOST, 24, Grey’s Anatomy spoilers too. I can understand it on reality TV like American Idol where you don’t have to pay attention to a plot, but how are you so into the damn show and tweeting at the same time EVERY blasted scene. Have some respect for your international tweeters.
• I’ve had some people actually think that our TV shows are on at the exact same time in the UK. “LondonDiva turn over to FOX ‘x, y, z’ is on!” Ummmmmm how can I break this down to you????
• How do we as Brits know you have, ABC, CBS, CNN, FOX etc but you are unaware we have our own channels? Take a trip outside of your American bubble and see we aren’t all the same.
• I love Americans [more than Brits] but sometimes the stuff you come out with……
• The one I loved the other day was the Re-Tweet about The Who who makes the CSI jingles. Ummm no it’s a classic song which CSI ‘USE’ as the theme tune.
• So hotels in Cambodia start at £0.48 a night and you can get a 4 star hotel for £5 a night.
• After looking at the Kuoni brochure last night I want to live in Bali and do nothing. OMG at how beautiful that place is.
• TV Shows, reading magazines, reading online blog sites etc take up tooooooo much of my time. If only I’d learnt that years ago. I’m not missing anything by cutting these things out. When you get to the end of 2010 and didn’t achieve what you wanted total up how many man hours were wasted indulging in the things that didn’t can couldn’t benefit you.
• Is everyone all over the world now making cupcakes?
• Is being a make-up artist the new black profession? I wanna be a rapper/ball player/make-up artist.
• It’s better than aspiring to be a video ho though, so more power to you.
• Nicki Minaj needs to quit with this Barbie image. We all know she was a stud lesbian, looking and sounding like a boy and dressed like a boy. You Tube videos don’t lie sweetheart.

• I was mildly depressed for 2 days after watching Precious.
• You know you’re a Londoner when a woman faints on your train and all you can think about is “Oh Lord I don’t want to be late for work!”
• Why do people always rep and praise fools like Lil Wayne yet reel of a list of dislikes and throw names at folks like Tyler Perry and Nick Cannon? Doesn’t that say a lot about your mindset? Beware of the company you keep and fools you support.
• I REALLY want to see Bon Jovi at the O2 but refuse to pay £125 a ticket.
• Thinking about it I’ve seen all my top fave acts live Mariah [twice], Linkin Park, Jay-Z and Prince!
• Now I gotta see em again!!
• I do NOT agree that Hendrix was the greatest guitar player of all time. Slash is way better and even he isn’t the greatest. [But he is to me]
• I am a HUGE, HUGE, HUGE, HUGE, HUGE, HUGE, HUGE, HUGE, HUGE, HUGE Slash fan! Listening to his guitar riffs give me tingles.

Thoughts Of The Day

• Ever watched a movie and identified with a character, you just get SO vex at what an idiot you are? I had to turn the DVD off for 2 days mid movie.
• I wish people would STOP announcing who they are unfollowing on Twitter. Only announce it if you got the balls to name em directly. Otherwise shut up!
• I'm going to ban people from contacting me on Mondays. I swear some people were put on this planet just to annoy me. Mondays aren't the most favourite day already for a lot of people. Don't make it any worse by being exceptionally annoying.
• I had a GREAT weekend.
• I'm getting back to my old self. It's good for me, dunno whether it's good for other people. *Kanye shrug*

• I've come to realise NO ONE has my best interests/welfare at heart more so than God. Folks showing their true colours make me wanna flip em the bird along with a side eye. Trife!
• I got some flaky ass friends. Cool, let em be flaky I got caller ID on my Blackberry, your calls don't have to get answered. Neither do your texts, e-mails, blackberry messages, tweets, or facebook messages for that matter.
• Me, me, me, me, me, me! That's what's it all about right now. Call me selfish *another Kanye shrug* I don't care.

• I can't give a damn about people who don't give a damn about me.
• Does and eye for an eye mean I can punch you in yours?
• Speaking of punching, must sort out that boxing session for after the Christmas holidays.
• Old habits die hard....
• The past few weeks have been really good to me, because God has been good to me.
• I feel 'different' can't explain it very well. It's definitely in a positive way [for me] that's for sure.
• My cold has gone and I miss my sexy husky voice.
• The grass is always greener on the other side.
• If Tiger Woods got run over I don't think the world would care much. I'd probably do another Kanye shrug.

• What's up with everyone thinking Jay-Z and Beyoncé are Freemasons and associated with the devil? Just because a 9 minutue video is on You Tube it doesn't make it fact.
• So Joe won the X Factor.....alrighy then. This year was dry, but I'll miss it.
• I have 14,222 tweets on Twitter since Feb 2009. I have A LOT on my mind I guess.
• Why are Egg Nog Lattes at Starbucks only around for Christmas? Vex!!!! They taste sooooo good!
• I haven't balanced my bank account since October. For me that's a daily thing... Oh well
• Still haven't mastered the art of not procrastinating.
• Just who are some of you ranting at on Twitter? Therapy perhaps?
• I know something you don't know.
• This thoughts of the day is random and part cryptic in parts....oh well.
• BBM users how many contacts do you have? I have 17. If you dunno what BBM is ....

• Only lazy people make New Year's Resolutions. What happened to today? What's so magical about Jan 1st?
• If I hear one more person talking about they'd overlook it if their partner cheated the first time, following a Tiger Woods convo, I'mma scream! "Oh but Nai when you have kids it's different." I'm sure it is. I DON'T believe in staying together for the sake of the children. Happy children thrive with happy parents, whether divorced or single. You can't fling that one at me.
• Enough about that. Tiger has had too much coverage from his fellow people who he doesn't even acknowledge anyways.
• So Christmas in x amount of days....?  Yeah......um.....so what!
• I'm 30, not dead!
• What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
• 6 days until the 2nd anniversary of my baby godson's death. I feel fine, but I remember I felt the same way last year until it hit on the 20th. Guess we'll see in 6 days time.
• His presence for 9 weeks and 5 days taught me a lot of things. One of them was not to deal with or accept any BS from people. Life is too short to be unhappy.
• Where is the old Mariah? Memoirs is a pants album. 'Standing O' is my fave along with the cover 'I Wanna Know What Love Is.' I love H.A.T.E.U. as well.
• At 3:30pm is it too early for a glass or two of Rosé?

Thoughts Of The Day

• At 8:32am is it too early to even have so many thoughts of the day already.
• Went to sleep just after 5pm woke up just after 5am....jet lag or just overly tired???
• How long is jet lag supposed to last for anyway?
• You ever get the feeling when you're tired of fearing/putting off things and just want to say to hell with it, bite the bullet and do it anyway??? Yep, at that point. 
• Whether the outcome is good/bad just gonna do it anyway.
• Regardless of the weather today, I'm getting out of the house....need to.
• Going to look into some 'extra-curricular' activities.
• Going back to work for 2 reasons and 2 reasons only...1. To pay off the last of my debts and 2. To save some money.
• Certain people don't annoy me as much as they used to. Let them be them, I'm going to continue being me.
• Wondering if I've compromised being 100% myself in any way shape or form (not for the better) recently.  Need to think about that one deeply and seriously.
• I haven't spoken to a friend since I was 18 years old. Got in contact with her on Facebook, this morning she accepted my friend request. She sent me a message which I'm too chicken to read at the moment. I will, but later.
  
• Back to the job thing, they want to see me for an interview (not mentioning any company names)...you know how the Internet works.
• I'm de-junking anything and everything I don't need/use room by room in this house. I have this strange energy around me the moment and the more I get rid of the better I feel. I can't function with uneccessary crap around me.
• The no cursing thing is going well.
• Missing my baby. He may not think I listen all the time, but I take what he says on board, and to be honest a lot of it helps. He has his ways as do I, but bottom line is I thank God for having him in my life.
  
• Why did my mother call me when I was sleeping and question why I hadn't unpacked my suitcase yet? I didn't have the time to tell her I am clearing out the house so why unpack and create more mess. She never has conversations for more than a minute on her cell phone, especially when calling from overseas.
• Sometimes I call on Jesus, sometimes I call on God. It still confuses me. Regardless I'm sure he's listening.
• For me and some of those around me things may not be 100% fine and dandy, but I feel totally at peace about the future...maybe because I prayed so hard about it and asked God to seriously make it not be an issue and work on it for me and them. Guess the peaceful feeling can be equated to that of faith. If I was to sit here worrying about it, probably means I have little to no faith that I've asked God to take care of it and believe that he will.
• Rain and wind at 6am in London. I remember waking up a year ago to heavy rain in Koh Lanta at 6 in the morning and it was the best sight and sound ever. 
• I don't like London, but I'll accept it for what it is, and appreciate it.
• 3 weeks away did me the world of good. You get back here and everything that bothered you doesn't anymore. The banging outside early in the morning, the rude people, the crowds, the dull weather it's like whatever!!!
• I got a ton of stuff to do today. I'm not going to over extert myself, but I'm not going to be lazy about it either.
• One thing at a time. I'm surprised I managed to start clearing out one room and not do 2 or 3 like I used to do then get frustrated that nothing got done when I wanted it to be done. If it takes me a week to do one room then so be it. Not doing another one till that one is done.
• My mind works over-time. If I got paid for thinking I'd be richer than Bill Gates.
• I looked at some of the blogs I'm subscribed to. I REALLY DON'T give a rats arse about who's wearing Miu Miu, what the new colours are for this season, and who is dating who. I really don't!!
• I love having a laptop as well as a desktop. It means on mornings like this I can catch up with I'm a celebrity from my bed.
• I am BLESSED and really need to remember that! ALWAYS.
• When you feel good on the inside, that's the hardest time to stick close to God like glue. When you feel like crap...BAM....everyone gets on their knees and prays. I don't want to be like that.
• It's actually very easy to be the bigger person and to admit to being wrong and sorry. Wish I'd known about that a few decades ago, but hey...you literally live and you learn.
• Katie Price better not turn over a new leaf in the jungle and have me feeling sorry/sympathy towards her. I'm a dedicated Team Andre supporter.
• I mean seriously, how lovely is Peter Andre??? Does that woman know how many women would kill for a man, husband and father like Peter and she treated him like crap, and publicly at that.
• So I hear 2012 ain't all that...seeing it anyway.
• I really need to watch some films I've refused to see.  I could be missing out on some good movies or actually surprise myself at what I might like. I have The Duchess downstairs, that maybe one I'll start with rather than send it back.
• Rev Run speaks a TON of sense. I'll take his wisdom over Deepak Chopra's anyday. Deepak is just long winded for my liking. I don't want to look up in a dictionary what you mean if you are trying to inspire me.
• I have less than a month till the Miley Cyrus concert...It's for my cousin Ronni, not for me! I have a feeling I'm going to enjoy it though.
• Today I had a strong desire to want to be in Thailand. Not Bangkok but back on that little island of Koh Lanta. I'll go back again. There's nothing from stopping that happening again.
• I don't want to drop asleep at 5pm again today. I really don't. Jesus be a case of Red Bull and a packet of Pro Plus.
• Ronni has her first football match today. I don't want to hear about any bruises because I am not ready for jail.
• Rev Run said yesterday that a day without prayer is a boast to God. A boast that you can do just fine without him.
• So the VAT goes back up to 17.5% Jan 1st 2010.  Nice!!
• And the travel fares too. **rolls eyes** It's OK Mr Gubment tek it!! 
• I'm not (and never) wait till the New Year to make changes. It Maybe Nov 18th but it feels like my New Year today. What's the point in waiting, tomorrow is never promised right.
• When I came back from Dallas, had a New Mexico brochure sent to me (which I forgot I requested online).  Really want to got to NM **puts it on the list**
• I got over one of my fears. I held an animal. A little Yorskshire Terrier puppy. She was so cute. I want one!!! Then we went back to another PetLand and saw another Yorkie puppy this one was crazy, running all over the place. I can't lie he scared me a little. Anyone that knows me, knows I am not an animal person. Never ever wanted a dog, but now that's all I can think about. I want that puppy dammit!!! And no I will not be dressing it up in clothes.

• I found it funny when my friend said ever so clamly "It's been proven that dogs don't like being dressed up in clothes." I don't know if it was what she said or how she said it. I bet they paid a ton of money researching that dog don't like being dressed up.
• It's time for a girly get together. Looks like I'll be organising it then. I swore I wouldn't do it as no one else does. But you know what...whatever!!! And this time I'm not gonna get mad at those that don't respond or act all fussy. You don't have a right to be when you're not doing the organising.
• Mad for Reenie that her cuz brought her swine flu infected daughter to see her. Bang outta order!!
  
• I think it's time I watch I'm A Celebrity from the bed, shower then get on with the rest of my day.
• Ummm am I missing something, where is the spellcheck???

Thoughts of the Day

• I wish people knew how to use voicemail. If you call my house, then my mobile, and then my mobile again either (a) I don't want to talk to you, (b) I'm unavailable. LEAVE A MESSAGE. Don't do the same thing on Monday and then Tuesday.
  
• I've had a 'can't be bothered' attitude for about 3-4 weeks now. Feel like I haven't done shit in a long ass time.
• I shouldn't have to ask for my money back. I don't lend people money, this was due to a refund for the Michael Jackson tickets, but please, after I booked em, gave you the 50% of the tickets, processed the refund, then 6 weeks later for me to ask "where is the refund?" is ridiculous.
  
• I still don't lend people money, I'd rather you just have it, but you'd have to be very, very, very close to me in order for me to even want to say "here just have it." Causes too many damn problems trying to get what's yours back. I don't lend A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G out. I'm not mean. I'm sensible. It keeps my blood pressure to a minimum.
  
• The only thing going well right about now is my weight gain. Still don't trust those digital scales though.
• Miss Understood.
• I'm going to shut down my Fotki account. People still e-mail me asking me for the password and questions advice on haircare. I really have not and cannot be bothered...hey at least I'm honest.
• I put Beverley Hills Chihuahua on my HIGH priority list to send me out next for my DVD rental, do you think one of the 3 DVD's coming to me tomorrow is about a prissy, diva talking dog??? The hell it is NOT!
  
• What is it going to take to get me 'back to normal'?
• Tired of being tired. How much sleep can one person have in a 24 hr period?
• I feel the only person that 'gets me' is a 7yr old. And no it's not my imaginary friend.
• Don't assume....ASK!
• I'm addicted to Subway.
• What's the point of addressing something/someone in the hope of feeling better and getting it out of your system, only to feel ten times worse for doing it? There is none. Listen to your gut. Shut up. Try and sleep it off.
  
• Why did my cousin give up smoking when pregnant, and now her daughter is a matter of weeks old she's breastfeeding and smoking? I am not surprised though, wouldn't expect anything less from her.
• The problem is not necessarily having the problem within yourself. It's when you don't address it and refuse to do anything about it. That is the bigger problem.
  
• I have computer rage right about now. How many times do I have to reboot this thing?
• Aww well...."like attracts like" If I'm having a shitty day, then shitty things will follow I suppose.
• I woke up in the not so greatest of moods, went for a 3.6 mile walk (thanks Google Maps for the accuracy), listened to my Ipod which usually makes me feel better. I didn't. Was worried about the amount of weight I'd lose on this long walk on an empty stomach so made sure I ate 3 Auntie Anne's pretzels on the walk back home which was a total of 1220 calories.
  
• I broke my walking on the street and eating rule. But today I really didn't care. It was hardly fried chicken, jerk pork or pizza, that I see a ton of people doing. Plus 3.6 miles walking on an empty stomach whilst trying to gain weight...PLEASE.
  
• My legs were so tired so I came home and slept through Family Guy [again]....that's all I seem to bloody do.
• I shouldn't wish for it and don't want it [again] but I'd rather have PCOS than PMS.
• Speaking of PCOS, why do I know so many women that have it over ones that don't, and doctors claim it's only 10% of women that suffer from it...yeah whatever!!!
• My goal of finishing my book by the end of 2009 may not happen. I can try, but......well we'll see.
• Don't ask me what the above is about. Not yet anyway.
  
• Haven't yet decided if Rihanna has a great sense of style, or a great stylist.
• Beyonce has neither. This girl cannot dress for shit.
• Mariah can only get it right about once a year.
• Tired of white kids dying from a drug overdose in a club and them making the news like they died for some worthy cause. When it's black folks, we're junkies or crackheads. They were a good girl with a promising future ahead of her, and not into this lifestyle says the delusional white mother and father.
  
• The word swag doesn't bother me at all, but 'epic fail' certainly does.
• Now if you could put a picture to word swag of someone who I think epitomises that I would definitely have to say Jay-Z. Nothing about the money, but I can definitely see why Beyonce married him.
• Why does she look more like his #1 groupie than his wife?
• The more I see them together, the more I like Nick & Mariah as a couple.
• After my online class I'm gonna watch Tiny & Toya dammit.
• I can't stand Toya, no one cares you were married to the Critter aka Lil Wayne. We didn't even know before the show. And no one wants to read your non juicy book either. You've been divorced for 300 years get over it.
• I do like Tiny though. I may not understand what she says half the time, but she seems cool.
• Shame on T.I. for being another controlling bastard, even from behind a prison cell. I hope Tiny does get back to work and does something for herself other than being another black woman to a black man keeping her interested with not 1 but 2 engagement rings.
• Yes I'm 3 years late, watched Stomp The Yard [in full] the other day and enjoyed it. A LOT!
• Is Gerard Butler the new Russell Crowe...Let's hope so. Like Nicole Kidman anything with Crowe in it you have to FORCE me to watch.
  
• Is there a black movie out there, without Meagan Good? So glad her ass got tore up in Saw 5. One of my favourite parts.
  
• I really want to take that Hip-Hop dance class, but if I'm feeling lazy now is not the right time to be thinking about getting hella active.
• How hard is it in London to find somewhere to get your nose pierced? Still in 2 minds about getting the belly button done though.
  
• Had my nose pierced when I was 18 then went to work in the corporate world. Didn't feel it was appropriate. No longer in the corporate world...appropriate!
• So no more Big Brother......[I'm a little saddened by this], but if they keep making trash like Charm School etc I'll be alright.
• Hungry, and not a clue of what I want to eat...Subway maybe???
• I don't care what anyone says that South African 'girl' is a dude. And if it's a girl then she's definitely into girls. The one from the world championships. *Shudders* I'll post pics in another blog post.
• There is one girl on Twitter who cracks me up. Funnily enuogh she reminds me of myself. Jamaican fam and her birthday is a day after mine...not surprised. She definitely keeps it real.
• Love Twitter, hate Myspace, thinking about closing my Facebook account.
• My mood has lightened by 0.01% since writing this blog. *Note to self* do NOT call my mother until I've eaten again, as she may set me back 1,000 steps and send me to the damn asylum.
  

Thoughts Of The Day

• It's been a long while since I've done a 'Thoughts of the Day' blog.
• I've really missed blogging, and actually felt like I abandoned my lil clique of faithful readers.
• I needed to have a moment and get myself together where it wasn't all about the Internet.
• California has been on my mind A LOT lately. I haven't been, but I've always wanted to go.
  
• I've been busier since being unemployed, and that is the TRUTH!!
• I'm up for about 30+ hours at a times these days and although tired, it feels great to be busy.
• I slept for the whole weekend, literally. I felt a little guilty but realised if I slept for that long I must have been tired.
• I have been awful in getting back to people recently.
• The government now pay for me whilst job hunting and pay my rent and Council Tax in full. I do not feel guilty for this at all. I've been a tax payer since I was 16 paying for illegals, what is being paid to me I've bloody contributed to the system.
• I don't miss the Northern Line during the rush hour.
• I've been up since 8pm last night and want to go see Star Trek this afternoon but may go later cause I'm sure I'm gonna fall asleep in the cinema.
• I'm supposed to be out and about right now, but my black ass is here in my robe blogging.
• Twitter is my addiction and Facebook is just boring to me now. I'll keep Facebook as I like it for the keeping in touch element of things.
• Me and Mrs H have not spoken since March and I like it that way.
• I don't think people really understand just how much I hate Mother's Day.
• Do people actually understand the difference between being alone and lonely? I do. Do you?
• Sushi is on my mind HARD today.
• Why is it these days I feel my body is on one big hormonal trip. I'm not moody or anything, it's like do we get a day off from things being tender, bloated, or sore as women? DAMN!
• I better get on. Well 1 more blog post then I'm done.
  

Thoughts Of The Day

• Just what are my thoughts indeed this week?
• Weekend was very productive. Bought up a lot of bits for the house. I'm going to paint the kitchen on Wednesday, or maybe Tuesday evening...give my dad a break he's been working so hard this weekend.
• 1 working day and 3 hours to go till I'm done working for Schroders. Fear factor is non-existent.
• Once I'm done there will be no time for daytime television. There is too much to do. The only sit down times should be a break or wind down time in the evening.
• I have no motivation today...anything to do with tomorrow being my last day perhaps.
• I hate the new Facebook layout. If it wasn't for the fact it's one site that links peeps together I would have deleted my account already, but will keep it.
• Twitter is my new favourite 'social networking site.'
• There are a TON of very boring celebrities on there John Mayer being one of them. Now 'unfollowed'
• Soulja Boy is one whiny bitch. TMZ and Media Take Out will talk about you. Don't like then don't become a celebrity. Bitch ass bitch.
• Add to that egotistical ones. *cough* Estelle *cough* who writes things like "I'm living the life you're reading about." She got into a cab and went to the hairdressers, got her eyebrows and hair done this weekend. Oh and she went to a basketball game. Whoop di fuckin do! I'm so jealous. There is a distinct difference between admiration and envy. Some people need to learn that and understand we may not be making big bucks and have our faces everywhere BUT...we are very content and happy in what we have.
• Diddy and his making love Twits **fake barf**. Never let me hear about the press being too intrusive Diddy...never. You tell us enough...more than enough.
• Why is Cassie even signed to Bad Boy? Oh yeah......I remember now...
• Ashton Kutcher is too disrespectful. His wife Demi was cleaning in a bikini he snapped her bending over and posted her butt on Twitter. Sorry if that was my husband **insert Jamaican cussin here** I don't care how much of a joker he is...but then again white people are on a different humour flex than us. Black men know [usually] what lines to cross and which lines to stand far back from. To me that's not funny. Have some respect for your spouse.
• This week is going to be very tiring.
• Why does this woman constantly have her hand all up in her hair like it's nice. It's thin like rats tail. Stop flicking your 2 strands.
• No I did not observe Mother's Day this weekend.
• And when I have kids they aren't to get me a damn thing either. I feel a blog coming on...
• Can this heffer stop the damn sniffing. She claims there is nothing in her nose but she's sniffing anyway. Everyday for how many hours? There's something in your nose yeah. Get it out!
• There she goes with the hair flick again. You're sitting at your desk you hair did not move. She thinks she's cute but she actually isn't. No seriously she isn't cute at all, she looks slightly Downs. No disrespect to Downs sufferers cause I actually think they are cute n sweet.
• Hmmm I got 2 hrs 7 minutes before I clock off. Shall I get on with some work?
• NO!
• With a lil at home time from Wednesday I'm wondering what will my blogging topics be. It's not like I'll have co-workers or nasty Tube travellers to blog about. Guess LD will start having to go deep again and writing about social issues. The next one "WTF is wrong with the black man."
• I'm just kidding with that one. No really I am. Black women have their issues too. My opinion is definitely NOT one sided.
• WTF is up with the English weather? Hmph, it's English weather why am I even asking.
• That Grizzly Man documentary film in on More4 Tuesday @ 10pm. This fool that lived for these big ass bears and said he would die for them. He bloody did, one of them killed his claat.
• The Apprentice is back on Wednesday. Can't wait. And before you ask....1 BLACK PERSON, aka TOKEN black and you know this one isn't going to win.
• I'm genuinely saddened by Jade's death. I haven't been upset about a celeb's death since Bernie Mac passed. I was so cut up about that one.
• Some people can be sad on cue. I personally can't be sad for every passing to the point of welling up and shedding a tear. Aaliyah, Bernie and Jade are the ones that really moved me that I remember.
• I finally got my PUSH novel today.
• I had a flick through Watchmen the graphic novel in Waterstone's. **nods** Gonna get that one. Especially after seeing the movie.
• Gotta order Hancock 2 Disc special edition in time for Saturday. Ronni just loves a superhero flick. And I just love Will Smith.
• My girl @ 7 years old has ditched swimming and taken up Judo. She has now requested that she goes to church every Sunday. No more lie ins for my aunt it seems.
• I've been so busy it's taken me 4 days to watch 1 episode of The Wire. By the time I get ready to watch it I can only manage 10 mins before I fall asleep.
• I still have no regrets about the ending of a friendship last week.
• Tasty Jerk make the best Jerk Pork outside of Jamaica. Seriously if any of you are ever in my neck of the woods [by invite of course I have a bat and pepper spray waiting for you stalkers] I will treat you to Jerk Pork, Chicken or Fish from there.
• This years American Idol is boring. Danny to win please, or the gay guy Adam. Loved his Johnny Cash version.
• I have less than 2 hours now.

Thoughts Of The Day

• Why is it everywhere I turn people are questioning "whether the Devil exists?" I've seen people ask, or seen it written at least 5 times over the past few weeks. I think people choose to believe he doesn't exist as thinking like this makes is easier on their conscious. There's no need to 'waste time' believing in a God if there's no devil. No devil = No hell, so they're OK come an afterlife [that's if they believe in one]. Kissing my teeth at that one right there.
• And on the religious tip, people who say they believe in God....SO! So does the Devil, he's believes in God too. Doesn't mean a thing. You can believe in someone doing good [God]. You can believe in someone doing bad [Devil]. I believe in both, it's who you choose to follow in faith that's important.
• OK some of these celebrities on Twitter are boring as hell. Meagan Good I had to unfollow her. Diddy with his ptwitty TV and "Let's go people" and telling us he's taking a five minute break from making love. Whatever man.
• My weekend was preoccupied with my hair. Hours taking out my braids, hours detangling my hair, then washing and deep conditioning as well as hooking up a new style to get me through the week. I had no time to rebraid my hair so have scheduled that for 2 weeks time when I'm free. Perfect timing for me weekend away to Lisbon.
• I really have to time for people that cannot make the effort for me. Nuff said.
• OK the sun is out but why do English people wanna act the straight fool. It's not summertime. I still had to wear a scarf this morning for non-fashionable reasons.
• I still haven't checked out the new Facebook layout. I've just been using it from my Blackberry.
• I'm on the make money hustle again today. It's kinda addictive. I miss those "get money money days". Although I don't let money consume me like others. I'd like to think I'm sensible with mine.
• Next weekend birthday dinner #3, will blog about the restaurant choice [my turn] soon.
• I'm hoping this week will be a good one. I have my Joyce Meyer book Starting Your Day Right which has a daily reading to get you going and started for the day. I also have the Ending Your Day Right book. The 'Starting' one is on the desk in front of me at work. I will refer to the Marhc 16th reading if any of these fools try and alter my mood.
• McDonald's lunch today me thinks. Had no time to make it before I left will get on that bandwagon Tuesday to Friday.
• If I think about it, one pair of curtains, and some bedding and I'm pretty much set to get a lodger in. Gotta reshuffle the kitchen cupboards though. Hmm that is one of the tasks for this week I suppose.
• After three dire episodes of season 1 of The Wire I'm pretty much into it now. And Idris Elba still ain't saying a damn thing. His head is still the shape of a peanut.
• Right I've decided to just go with a 'particular netbook' And no it's not the Acer Aspire One. I only need it for word processing anyway for my novel. Let me get all 'research like' and see if I can source one at wholesale.
• So Samuel L Jackson has signed a 9 picture deal as Nick Fury. Just what have Marvel got up their sleeves over the next few years? And you better believe this is going to come with a LOT of Internet racist comments [as Nick Fury is white]. If you have watched past the end credits of Iron-Man, do so, Nick Fury makes his first [uncredited] appearance, which then follows onto The Hulk movie where Tony Stark/Iron Man makes a brief appearance. This is all setting the pace for the Avengers Initiative being created that will hit the screens in 2012.
• I can't decide on what charity to donate to this week from Friday's pay.

Thoughts Of The Day

"If I start my day hearing about the word of God, and I end my day hearing about the word of God, then your irrelevant words I hear in between mean nothing to me. For no word is greater than the word of God." - LondonDiva

Thoughts Of The Day

• Mondays don't have to be bad. I changed my Facebook status to 'rather than moan about it being MonDAY, look at it that you're blessed to live & see another DAY!' It's all well and good to moan about the weekend being over, but if you're blessed enough, another one will soon be here. I mean look at it this way after hearing about Jade Goody having to be admitted to hospital to have a stomach operation to make her dying days [from cancer] more bearable, does it really seem that bad? She hasn't got many more Mondays left.
• I had a lovely time at the ballet on Saturday. However I was pissed off to see a lot of people wearing jeans. That to me was disgusting. You're paying about £100 for a seat at the Royal Ballet performance of Swan Lake at the Royal Opera House. Mrs H said "it's not like they didn't know how to dress for the occasion. The word 'Royal' is in there twice." Although no royals are present, the venue and the production says it all in how you are supposed to dress for an occasion. Some people should really feel shame. I would have thought it was one event where 90% of the people got it right. I even saw a man in a hooded sweater and jeans. **Shakes head**
• Why is this man chewing this gum like it's some tasty 3 course meal. The noise has got to stop.
• How sweet of my co-worker to leave me a packet of Walker's Fish & Chips flavoured crisps on my desk this morning.
• I saw Ronni yesterday. My goodness that child is growing up fast. I only saw her two weeks ago.
• I was proud of myself this weekend, I didn't procrastinate as much and actually got a fair bit done. Let's hope I can keep this up.
• I'm looking forward to this weekend. I'll finally get to meet fellow blogger Shona Vixen for bowling and karaoke. I've got a party later in the evening and then London Fashion Weekend on the Sunday.
• Let's hope I can get another Bracher Emden bag to add to the one I bought a few months back in September. I'm not going to go crazy this time. I ended up purchasing about 5 leather handbags.
• I feel really good today.
• I'm laughing at the e-mails back and forth between me and my co-worker about the gum chewer. She's just as pissed off as I am.
• Oh just as I type this...gum goes in the bin. Thank you Jesus!
• I'm still on the Joyce Meyer tip. I could listen to her forever.
• Why is everyone now all of a sudden on the Blackberry tip? When I got my first Blackberry back in 2005 [I'm on model #3 now] everybody was mocking me. Now they have one they are swooning over it and all that it can do.
• April 4th Blackberry #4 and time for my upgrade from T-Mobile. I'm actually very surprised at my family and friends that don't make use of the fact they can upgrade every 11 months. I upgrade on the day. You don't have to tell me twice.
• I hope people don't think I'm going to be some kind of Blackberry customer services. I'll show you a few things, other than that read the manual or go online and check. JUST LIKE I DID.
• I told Mrs H if she's that opposed to Facebook and it's terms and conditions and policies with regard to the way they use information, then she shouldn't bother with the Internet at all. I really wish people would research what the news tells them rather than take everything said at face value. Once you're online your business is never 'private' with any company. I think she must think Facebook is the devil or something. It's not that serious! Geez!
• Great, now gum chewer is on the sandwich. Anyone have a bible present?
• Right It's time for me to go out to the post office. I can't stomach watching this man eat in front of me right about now.

Thoughts Of The Day [Revisited]

• Scratch Push and Friday the 13th. Push has awful reviews and I'm not wasting my time on that today. So I've opted for Gran Torino and Cadillac Records, another movie double bill. Man I wish I'd have known about this Cineworld pass years ago.
• Can you please tell me how much work I've done today? **SIGH**
• Hayley where is my e-mail??? Don't make me take off my shoe.
• Um WTF is Frank Bruno doing shaking the hand of the Yorkshire ripper? Aww Hell No!!

Thoughts Of The Day

• I saw a double bill at the cinema last night. Slumdog Millionaire and Confessions of a Shopaholic. Don't even bother seeing the latter. Slumdog was good, beautiful cinematography, great direction and acting [especially from the little Slumdog children]. I didn't think much of Frieda Pinto at all, and what was up with Dev's Northern/Indian accent mix?
• Do they always have to resort to the light skinned Desi women. Especially as the first two Latika's were dark skinned. **WHATEVER**
• Still on Slumdog, I managed to see this film with no expectations even with all of the hype surrounding it. I don't listen to critics who pan or hype up a movie. I knew nothing about the film or the plot [except it centering around the slums, a game show and a love interest]. Having said that I didn't think it was great or fantastic, although I did enjoy it a lot. Everybody has their own take on a movie, I totally understood the underlying message even if others didn't. I'll get it on DVD though. I'll probably enjoy it more the second time around. I usually do. Everything is usually better the second time around.
• What is up with people eating food on the street and in public transport? I just passed a guy eating porridge [oatmeal] outside. It seems like manners and decorum have totally gone out of the window. Not even a packet of crisps do I eat when I'm out and about.
• I feel so dehydrated I fell asleep with the heating on last night and woke up with the inability to breath properly.
• I need these Walker's limited edition fish & chips flavoured crisps. Talk about tasty.
• Which part do you think I'm reaching for your birthday drinks when you can barely muster up a good morning. If I say good morning, a smile does not suffice in my book. Later luv, just totally reiterated why I have no time for work people and work drinks. Beggy beggy to come out for your 'do', but don't have basic manners. Sorry this black woman doesn't play that. I hate it when folks want you to come out just to make up numbers over just wanting you there because they want you there.
• It's best I remain silent for most of this day.
• I will actually be doing some work [I hope].
• The 'wotlessness' or lack of effort on some friends parts where I have asked them to do x, y and z doesn't bother me anymore. It really doesn't.
• Another double bill at the cinema tonight or go home?
• OK maybe 1 movie, then home.
• Does my love for Tyler Perry and E. Lynn Harris make me a fag hag? Even though Tyler isn't out and it's speculated, the gaydar says he is [even f true I don't care]. Overly effeminate gay men are just in a world of their own. I just love the sass, extraness [I know that's not a word] and that over the top voice, that some of them possess. They get away with so much regular bitchy women can't get away with. I love it.
• The next 4 Saturday's I have booked up. When am I going to get time to do x, y, and z?
• This week getting up and getting in early just seems to be not happening. Tomorrow perhaps?
• My boss needs to trim his nose hairs, get those teeth whitened and straightened. **shudders**
• If you're coming over to my desk don't hover over me when I'm eating my food sniffing. In fact don't even hover over me AT ALL!!
• 'He' is sooo sweet.
• Can this man get a bottle of Buttercup. How loud and how often are you going to cough for? He's had this constant cough for about 4 months now...no exaggeration. **Oh Lord here he goes again**
• Hmmm Push and Friday the 13th maybe for tonight?
• I have so much to do at home.
• I need to work on that organisation book, just to get organised. If I can get a majority of my work done here by lunchtime then I will work on that...shh don't tell anybody.
• Alright, lets get cracking LD, let's get cracking!!
• Not before I see if they have those shoes in my size!
• And not before I e-mail a peep or two!
• Ooooh naughty, naughty.