Technology Is Ruining My Life

"Hello my name is LondonDiva and I am an addict"

I am a junkie and there is no support group for people like me. I'm sure there are some people on the www (aka the Super Internet Highway) who are more obsessed than me, but I can't help it, I just can't. If my computer is switched off then it's my Blackberry that comes with me everywhere I go. I'm constantly checking my Facebook to see the status of all my Facebook pals and update mine a few times throughout the day, or to send and reply to messages and wall posts.

I found the level of my addiction reach an all time high when I found myself actually pissed off that MySpace doesn't have an application for mobile phones and Blackerry's. WTF is that all about. The Internet features on phones are too slow and you'd think the biggest online community in the world would have stepped up to the plate by now and added one. I NEED A MYSPACE APPLICATION FOR MY BLACKBERRY AND I WANT IT NOW.!

It started this past weekend. I had a relapse. I've had a MySpace page for coming on 2 years now and had over a 100 'friends' on there. 90% of those people I didn't know or had never met personally, and a majority of them came from the forum I've been a member of for 6 years. Like my Facebook rule, which I actually reserve for people I know, old school or college chums, have met in person, or are family members, I decided I was going to apply the same rule to my MySpace account and get rid of over 100 'friends', of whom I had no interest in nor cared about their updates or what they had to say on their blogs. What their marital status was, or even browse through their pictures where it seems 99% of the female MySpace population seem to pose ass first.

I had a clean up and it felt good, like a technological rebirth. I added a few applications, deleted some comments from non friend contacts, added some new pictures and sent a few messages and hellos and genuine ones at that. I had actually spent most of my Sunday on MySpace, and now everything I should have done on Sunday has now spilled into Tuesday.

I've reached the end, and I need to get a grip and join a 12 step program. It's gotten to the point where:

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  I'm writing my blog entry when I should actually be working. I have work to do yet making sure my life online is documented is paramount.
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  I had a can of Pepsi and scrambled eggs for dinner last night.
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  I have not done the grocery shopping that should have been done on Friday (it's now Tuesday) because shopping takes up time that could be better spent on the PC at home.
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  I'm a DVD addict, but it's taken me 4 days to start and finish watching Heat. This addiction has been surpassed by the DVD addiction.
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  I take my Blackberry with me to the bathroom at home. The kitchen, living room and 2 feet away from me at night in the bedroom.
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  The letters in my In-Tray at home should have been filed away. They are piling up.
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  I have not put away the laundry from last week's wash.
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  I went to bed at 3:30am on Monday morning and even in bed was still logging in online on my Blackberry from underneath the sheets.
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  I check my e-mails before I even get up out of the bed.
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  The 2 dresses I posted in the "I'm Officially IN the Closet" post came yesterday and I haven't even tried them on.
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  I haven't sent back the 'faulty' handbag to ASOS yet.
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  I've been sending my expense timesheet off on Tuesdays instead of preparing them over the weekend and posting them on Monday morning.
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  My Blackberry red light is flashing so that means I have an e-mail, text, IM or Facebook notification, and I'm dying to press the button…I did it was a text from a recruitment agency wanting Accountants. **Yawn**
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  I check my Blackberry countless times at my desk just by pressing any button to see if there's something there waiting for me to read. Even though the red light tells me this.

It's official. I am sick. I need to get back to the more organised me. The me that knows the importance of enough sleep, a balanced diet and a tidy home.
Maybe the fact that I've acknowledged my addiction I can somehow take the steps to getting myself clean again. Getting clean is not the problem it's remaining sober, because I'm one online community and application away from over dosing. And once I'm gone I many never come back

(This is not meant as a diagnosis tool!) - great that makes me feel a whole lot better.

Are you addicted to the Internet quiz I scored 30

Internet addiction likely
Based upon your responses to this quiz, it appears that the amount of time you're spending online may be causing you significant concerns within your real-world life. People who spend a lot of time online often find that they have difficulty balancing their Internet life with their real-world life (especially if you are new to the Internet). You should look at how you're using the Internet right now and see if there are ways that you can reduce or otherwise change your use of the Internet to reduce the issues it may be causing in your life. Think of it like this... You generally don't spend 6 or 8 hours in front of the television, every night, nearly every day. Most people wouldn't think that's normal. So if you find yourself spending that amount of time online day after day and it's affecting your ability to interact in your real life, you should seek change or additional help.

How sad am I? On a scale of 1-10 probably a 30.