R.I.P. Jade

Jade Cerisa Lorraine Goody
5th June 1981 - 22nd March 2009

She's Not Even Dead Yet!

I mean what in the world?

Yes we know Jade Goody is literally hanging in there hour by hour, but OK Magazine in my eyes have severely taken the living piss.

A tribute magazine 1981-2009 emblazoned on the front page already when she hasn't even passed yet. There is no way Jade will make it to April let alone 2010, but c'mon now are they trying to hurry her along into the afterlife so they can make some serious money with this issue?

If I saw this in WH SMith I would have seriously thought she had passed and somehow missed it in the news.

*Check the issue number of the magazine as well.....creepy!!

Let's Have Some Church Up In Here!

Why does what I choose to believe in bother YOU so much?

I'm not bothered about atheists, agnostics, Muslims, Hindus, Buddhists or even devil worshippers for that matter. Funny that people who have a problem with a religion as a whole are never bothered with the Buddhists and the Hari Krishna's of this world, but choose to be offended by God.

A war happens. Blame God.

People are murdered in their homes. Blame God.

Everything bad that happens. Blame God.

Ever heard of the damn devil? Somehow he manages to get a free pass in all of this and the one who has your best interests at heart gets dogged on. Some people are so dumb, blaming wars created in the name of religion. Umm I could say I'm going to kill you in the name of Jesus. Jesus isn't giving you a pass just because you said it's in his name. A sin is not discredited because you did it in the name of Jesus. Those that cause conflict in the name of religion are idiots. Those that don't understand that ARE idiots.

I don't care personally. People can choose what they want to believe in. HOWEVER what I do care about is people 'in my face' and whether that be in real life or over the world wide web trying to sway my thought process toward my belief. Not gonna happen. You may as well give up because you're wasting your time. The same way you can hear God, you can hear the devil too. And they both talk through people. Anyone trying to steer me in another direction is being used by the damn devil himself to sway me.

Let's look at Jade [Goody]. 27 years old with two young sons with about 1 month to live. People want to whine "this is so unfair, if there was a God then why isn't he doing something?" He's done a whole lot if people would shut up for a damn minute and think about it. Jade is dying, but look how many lives SHE'S SAVED from losing her own. Not saying she's a modern day Jesus but *cough* he did the same thing didn't he? Although Jade isn't dying to save us from all of our sins, all of these women are now getting screened for cervical cancer when all they did before was ignore the letters that came through the door. The screenings registered are through the roof! There has been a push to lower the age for screening [to hopefully save more lives]. Look at that. A possible government intervention all because of a loud mouth South-East London Reality TV star. Donations have gone up to Cancer charities since the news broke. And Jade herself is getting christened along with her sons. Luckily for her in God's eyes it doesn't matter when or how you come to him, as long as you come, even if it is at the last minute. Good for her if that's what she wants to do, I just hope it's in her heart and she's able to find some peace in her last days.

Look at that in the scheme of things. Whoever thought that from one of the original Reality TV shows [Big Brother] that started 10 years ago it would actually serve a REAL purpose. If there has to be a purpose other than to reignite or create a celebrity career, then let's hope that this decade long format of entertainment was drummed up in some weird way by God to change the lives of many through one person. Jade. If this is her life purpose, then so be it. I believe everyone is here for a purpose and although her end is tragic, she must feel great knowing her situation is highlighting a major issue not just in the UK but around the globe now. The rumours are that Oprah and Larry King are bidding for her last interview [money that would go to her children]. I don't know how true this is though.

If there was NO Big Brother, there'd be NO Jade. No Jade thrown into the spotlight [who didn't even win the show], NO REAL awareness of how serious this cancer actually is. She would have still probably gotten cancer had she still of been a dental nurse, but I wouldn't be blogging about her last days, and women wouldn't be clambering to the hospital to make sure they keep up with their cervical screenings. This is being talked about everywhere, newspapers, magazines, the radio, Parliament, on the Internet. The reason why it hits home more with Jade is because she's a regular girl from South London, who we've watched rise, fall, then rise again during her last days. This hits home with a lot of people. She's no Hollywood starlet and at 27 it shows us that no amount of celebrity or money is going to make you exempt, especially at your prime, millions in the bank, two children later and countless column inches. If it can happen to Jade it can happen to you and me [a regular South-East London girl] too.

I get it now. After us losing Roman at 9 weeks old, I was mad and faithless for the longest. He wasn't taken from us to punish us at all, in fact him being here and going has done a lot more for me than anything in my life. I won't go into it all, as I've gone on enough, but there are some things that I'll never understand as to 'why' they happened. You can't understand greatness like God's. All I know is the bad stuff that I've been through I now know why I was in that situation, and why I am the person that I am today. It's not necessarily a case of 'what I'm going through' that is the problem or the issue, but more so 'how I choose to handle what comes my way, and who I decide to lean on and ask for help.' Do I walk in faith and give it over to God and use him as my crutch or get all despondent, pissed off and why me me me, and not being able to see the TRUE meaning of why my black ass is going through some crap?

So mock me, roll your eyes, have an opinion because I choose to believe in God, I don't care. I remember that we were warned about people trying to stand in our way on our walk with God, and we'll be mocked, heckled, persecuted, even killed for our beliefs on a walk with the Lord. But like I do on the London Underground every morning, if someone is in my way, I walk AROUND them and keep on moving till I get to my destination. One things for sure though, the more I pray, listen to Joyce Meyer, remain positive, be thankful in his name, talk about God to my girls it pisses the devil off. It even pisses some people off too. Not my fault I'm at peace, blessed and highly favoured. I CHOOSE to be. Some can be at peace and blessed without God in their life. I have been before, but it feels better and different on a spiritual path. Some people know about God but can't be bothered as it involves too much sacrifice, too many rules to adhere to [I've been like that], but will have the energy to slate him and religion…whatever makes you happy folks. There are people prospering whilst your hating…get over it! So I prefer to 'keep it real' and remember that before I play the blame game that there are two sides, not just one. God and Devil at work vying for my attention and my soul. I know what team I'm on. The devil can tackle me on the playing field all he wants to trip me up. You just gotta get up, dust yourself off and keep on keeping on till the game is over and won.

If You Had 8 Weeks To Live...?

Jade Goody.

The UK's most famous reality TV star. She didn't even win series 3 of Big Brother. She came third. She's a loud mouth South London girl from Bermondsey and thick as a plank. She really is not intelligent at all. She never had a good start in life. Born to a mixed race father and a white mother, both were addicts. She was a 6 year old child playing mother to her own drug addicted and alcoholic mother, all the while suffering abuse at the hands of the woman she never abandoned. Her father was in and out of prison and was found dead from a heroin overdose in a KFC. Jade just got on with it. She's had a very rags to riches lifestyle. Jade has bagged millions on her reality TV success, she's opened [and then closed] her own beauty salon, went on to have 2 children with TV presenter Jeff Brazier, starred in many more reality TV shows, launched a perfume, a book, and was on the front cover on more magazines that you've had hot dinners. We’ve watched Jade 'sort of' grow up. Now at 27 years old we are watching her die before our very eyes.

She's been given about 8 weeks to live.

There are groups and websites happy that she is dying and saying she deserves it, especially after the Celebrity Big Brother Shilpa Shetty race row. DISGUSTING!! She has two sons aged 4 and 5 and has to explain to them that she's not going to be here in a few months time. Jade is and has admitted to milking it and getting as much money as she can to secure her sons future…and quite rightly so Jade. Any loving mother would do the same. She has money and three properties to leave to her children who are currently in private education. Something she herself never had growing up.

Call Jade what you want, she loves her kids and is doing what's best for them. If people can't get past the Shilpa Shetty fiasco, then **shrugs** whatever. She apologised which seemed genuine enough and her and Shilpa have made amends. What gets me is that no one was hard on Danielle Lloyd, she hasn't gone on to be vilified by the media. There were three women bullying Shilpa and Jade and Jo got the brunt of it. Anyway I digress. No way am I excusing her behaviour at all. I was indeed disgusted when watching Celebrity Big Brother a few years ago and very anti-Jade n'dem.

I met Jade a few years ago at Mariah Carey's concert. It was just after she had her first child and from what I remember she was absolutely delightful, very pretty, and had skin as smooth as a baby's bum bum. I asked about how her son was doing and told her I really loved her eviction outfit on Big Brother and we spoke for a little bit like old school acquaintances catching up. She was more than happy to pose for a picture with me as well, which I still have. A very personable young lady, she seemed very down to earth.

I read the News of the World story last night and can't lie I cried. In fact I'm even tearing up writing this. I know I'm gonna cry like a mutha when Jade passes. So young, and 2 little boys to live for.

She's like Marmite, you either love her or hate her. I loved Jade, but during that Shilpa drama I put that love on the back burner. Since she was diagnosed with Cervical Cancer which has now spread to her liver, bowel and groin I guess that love for Jade is back.

Newborn Jade with her late father Andrew Goody

Some good has come out of this. Cervical smears are up 20% in the UK since this became public. It's a cancer that can be detected very early. A few years ago I had pre-cancerous cells on my cervix and as a result am tested more frequently. I'm not even 30 yet, but imagine if that had turned into something terminal like Jade. Ladies our health is no joke. Please make sure you get your smears done when that letter comes through the door and make that appointment.

Another good thing is Jade knows how long she has left. Yep, that's a good thing. She has time, as do her friends and family to prepare to say goodbye and express how much they mean to one another, and say everything they've always wanted to say. We all have a loved one I'm sure we wish we could tell them just how much we miss and love them. Think about it, we are all Jade at the moment, living but dying. We are all on a countdown, the only difference being we haven't been given a rough estimate as to when. She has 8 weeks and will be getting married to her boyfriend and preparing a will for her children.

This is a prime example people of why I'm always spouting on about living life and being grateful for what you have. Tomorrow is never promised. The last days either creep up on you slowing or take those we love in an instant.

Anyone that thinks she deserves this, well let me just tell you this God don't like ugly and karma is a bitch! Remember that!

I guess Jade has served a purpose….to a degree. To her personally she became a loving mother to two young sons. On the flip side all these years of having Jade in the spotlight has raised awareness of a cancer so serious to women. If THAT was her only purpose of being a reality TV star then she's been the best one we've ever had.

If you have 8 weeks to live what would you do? What would you say to those you love that you haven't already?