Showing posts with label random. Show all posts
Showing posts with label random. Show all posts

17 Jul 2011

Random Mutterings...

Muttering #1
I'm supposed to be involved in a 30 day blogging challenge, and totally failed yesterday as I forgot to post. My mind was on so many different things I just looked at my computer like "really now? I beg you just f*** off. Not in the mood for you" I got back home going on 2am and realised I've FAILED!

OK maybe FAILED is a bit dramatic, but I intend to continue and do what needs to be done to complete this challenge, because I can.


6 Aug 2010

Time For A Quickie!

If I'm going to be a little absent for the next few weeks at least there will be this blog post letting you know that I haven't abandoned it, or the readers. I love my blog I really do, so that's not going to change anytime soon. To be honest sometimes my 'addiction' to keeping my blog updated daily can eat into other things as well.

I have some things going on [good great things] that are eating away at my time as well as helping out a friend with a 'website project thingy' of his, which I'm buzzed for. So really just want to focus on that as much as I can for now.

I'll post the odd blog here and there because there is plenty of foolery I'm seeing outta road, reading on Twitter that needs the signature LD rant to go along with it. Some of those fools on Twitter I swear, I can't even be bothered to address, just mute, un-follow or straight block. When you clear away the f**kery even on a social networking site, you're left with the wise and the humourous ones. PEACE AT LAST!!!

So far for me, it's been an interesting and positive week. It really has been, and it can only get better! It WILL get better.

BIG Thanks to all those that have subscribed in the box to the right for the blog straight to your e-mail...I see you [only in numbers though]. I added that about 2-3 weeks ago the numbers went from 1 to 11 subscribers via Feedburner last week, and just had a peep and it's now in the 3 figures. [I do have other followers via Google I just don't have that widget thing anymore]. Well there's something on here you like, and I'm glad to have you here because of it.

If I'm not on here you can always catch me on Twitter. Follow. Say hello...you know how it works. But please if you're one of those people [namely female] that come on there yapping about being single, heartbroken, or flappin her gums about her man 24/7/365, don't bother...I'm tired of women and their man related tweets every friggin minute. The odd occassion is fine, you got a good man big him up, but if your Twitter account is pure man this, pure man that, come off man! Get a real hobby besides worshipping the penis! 

And to some of the bitter fellas on Twitter, go sort out your issues with your mother, those coming on there with their Black women ain't sh** tweets...don't make me use the location map under your tweet, track you down and go all Madea on you. Call a shrink and sort it out. Not our fault you never latched onto the breast and bonded.

Anyway, till the next blog post which could be tomorrow, next week, who knows....have a great weekend folks. 

Stay busy.
Stay productive.
Stay focused.
Stay blessed.
Stay faithful.

LD x

27 Apr 2010

Fellas Say This....The Ladies Say That!

Alright, I've noticed a distinct difference over the past month comments, messages I've recieved about the cheating expose blog posts I've done from both men and women.

1. I have moved on. I'm not stuck on this dude. Me exposing his ways is something that I felt needed to be done via my blog and I have done that. Please don't get it confused. The only feeling I have for this person is dislike, not hatred. If he wants to e-mail me then fine. Just know some it may get posted.

2. Fellas please go 'head thinking this is too harsh etc. Seperate yourself from this fool and stop the brothaman kinship where in this case you need to distance yourself from men like this, especially if you are a good man. I don't stand on the sidelines everytime a woman does something out of order and support her JUST because she is a woman. It does not suit you. Reading what I wrote for some maybe a wake up call to themselves to keep themselves in check. You get a few female celebrities putting their husbands on blast, divorcing them, not working it, women like myself putting their business on blast for whoever to see with an ISP, now some fellas wanna act a lil scared. Act scared!

3. I am not part of the 'stand by your man' brigade. For me this was a public service. Which has served it's purpose. My blog posts are no different to websites created out there for women and men to expose individuals. I choose not to do it anonymously. Most people that know me know I go by this handle and have done for well over 10 years.

4. It was more about my own therapy and getting my shit out rather than revenge. If you see it solely as revenge then hey *another Kanye shrug*

5. I am allowed to be bitter over any damn thing I choose to be in my life. Was I bitter? Yes. Am I bitter now? No the hell I am not. I made a concious decision to keep those who wanted to know updated. Like I said certain things I keep private, certain things I don't care who knows. This was one of them.

6. The ladies seem to be OK with my posts. I wonder why? Probably because they too have experienced it and reading about cheating men 24/7, 365 in every damn newspaper and magazine they are just sick of it. Maybe they liked that I had the balls not to be a broken woman about mine and tell it like it is. Who knows??

7. If you are a trife man or woman and don't know how to act right, then maybe, just maybe you deserve to have someone expose you. Why should your ways go unnoticed and remain hidden?

8. Please. Before you want to comment and say "LD how could you....?" go on and ask him "how could he...?" THEN and only then ask me that?

9. Regrets???? None. I'm sleeping very soundly at night.

10. The cousin who I mentioned in the blog posts [not by name] removed me from his FB today. I expected that to happen months ago. Maybe some folks think I may go on and start exposing them. Nope. I only had time to talk about my own personal ish. I am expecting rumours to be flying around that I'm crazy, hateful and vengeful and to watch out cause LD may start emailing them ish. I have to remember I'm dealing with an habitual liar here and be prepared. I have not and will not be e-mailing anybody 'spilling info' without prompting. My business is here in the open. I'm a very honest person. If you come to me wanting answers, details, dates etc well then hey I'll be more than happy to say what I know and not fabricate anything.

29 Dec 2009

"Welcome To The Real World"


Ever gone to open up your mouth to speak, you're about to say the first word then you clamp it shut?? Well that's how my fingers have been acting toward this keyboard and typing up a blog post. I click on 'new post' then hit the X in the top right hand corner and log straight off.

I love my blog I really do. I love the people that take the time to read about me rant, rave, recommend, inspire [I hope], and just be myself and [kinda] love me for...hell just being me. I'm using love in the like sense here folks.

Out of all of the months in 2009 I think December has been the most challenging for me personally. I knew I was a thinker, but damn I didn't realize just how much. In limbo, out of sync, indecisive, up and down...whatever you want to call it I have been it. Don't get me wrong I haven't been depressed or anything, I've actually been enjoying myself a hell of a lot, but you can't do that for every minute of the day, and when I'm not, that's when the brain gets to ticking. Thinking about where I want to be, where I don't want to be, where I want to go, where I don't want to go, and just figuring out what do I want in life to make me blissfully happy and content.

One thing I've learnt is that you can't rely on other people to determine your happiness. Even if they do make you happy, you have to be content and happy with yourself first and foremost, and I think that has been my biggest problem in my 30 years of existence on this earth. I've always relied on other people to make me happy, and when they don't it's a major let down. I've become the best type of selfish there is, and that's by putting me first. It doesn't mean to hell with everybody else [not at all] but it just means that I cannot put my wants and needs aside to tend to somebody else's ALL OF THE TIME like I used to.

My major issue used to be never knowing what I meant to certain people in my life. Kind of like wanting and needing some validation and acceptance. I've come to a point where you know what, you either tell me with sincerity or you don't. I'm not about to dig and ask people anymore what value I hold to them. The way they are towards me will be validation enough. I don't need to seek for that validation anymore, because it really does ring true about "it's what you think about you that matters, not what anybody else thinks." And for the first time I actually 'get it, think it and feel it.' I think highly of myself, love myself, deserve the very best and want the best. I always thought and felt it was wrong to think and feel that way, like I needed people to give me those things *shakes head* I don't. What they add onto that is a bonus and I'll accept it gladly if and when they decide to give it to me, but it's not about relying on it or seeking it anymore.

This is not me feeling or acting cold, it's just the reality kicking in. Does this officially mean I'm a real grown up? That the internal 18 year old has caught up with the external 30 year old? Who knows. I'm sure forever there will always remain that youthful and at times childlike element to my character that won't hurt or hinder the little picking of wisdom I'm gathering along the way. But truth be told, I honestly don't like this grown up feeling [YET], but it is something I'm going to have to get used to, because if I want the things in life grown ups are supposed to have then I better get on with it. Hadn't I? And for once...I know exactly what I want.


11 Dec 2009

I Am Not...

I Am Not…
…your emotional punching bag.
…your last resort.
…your bank account.
…your ‘go to’ person when everybody else is busy.
…your bitch!
…your damn slave.

I Am Not…
...here to wait on you.
…here to be ignored.
…here for your convenience.
…here simply for your pleasure and gratification.
…here to listen to all of your problems and ONLY your problems.
…here to be disrespected by you or anybody else.
…here to be spoken to rudely.
…here to be used, abused and mistreated.
…here for entertainment purposes to relieve boredom.
…here only when you want/need something.
…here to be picked up and dropped like a bad habit at the drop of a hat.


I Am…
…your friend.
…your daughter.
…your sister.
…your confidant
and much more.


Treat people EXACTLY how you want to be treated.

20 Nov 2009

Procrastination!


Is there a book on how to overcome it? And if so, how do you even battle the procrastination to pick up the book and read it anyway?

I got a few things to do, daily I've been putting them off. I'm trying to get them done and get up out of here. Not happening right now.

My inside voice is saying...tomorrow. My outside voice is saying do it now.

**ROLLING OF THE EYES COMMENCES**

In my head I got it all played out of how pro-active I'm going to be. When I get up and to it, it doesn't go so well.

Oh well only 2pm...I'm not going to count myself out just yet.

Let me leave the Blackberry alone...doesn't help if you've got a ton of stuff to do.

No distractions. Let me just get on with the little list that I have.

*SIGH*

T.I.R.E.D. of being a procrastinator.

I'm even blogging when I should be doing stuff.....

....Alright let me hop, skip and jump to it. The sooner it gets done, the sooner I can get out of here.

The more that gets done today, leaves little to be done tomorrow.

"Seein' Right Through You Like You're Bathin' In Windex"



I don't think I've ever quoted my own Facebook status in the few years I've been blogging.

"The transparency of certain individuals NEVER ceases to amaze me. So, so, so transparent even Stevie Wonder can see it! To shake my head, laugh or do both?? Rev Run, Joyce Meyer, TD Jakes I've quoted quite a fair bit. Today Facebookers, the quote comes from the one and only..."Seein' right through you like you're bath...in' in windex" -Mariah Carey. Never has such a JOVIAL lyric in a song made SO MUCH SENSE."


It's not about the song 'Obsessed' more so just that line. Yeah the song is fun and light hearted, and the most jovial line in it is the windex line repeated throughout the chorus. When you kick off your shoes and relax your feet, sit and observe, it really is a trip at the lengths some people go to and coninue to go to. Masquerading behind a facade, trying to appear to be the person they are NOT for alterior motives. I can see it, and it's pitiful. It's funny for a millisecond, then just really not so clever after that. Then my temper kicks in and I want to scream "what kind of a fool do you take me for?"

Luckily for me I've learnt to ask for help, whether it's something so small or absolutely huge. Praying boldly is my new thing. The Lord knows my tolerance and patience is very low at most times.

My bold prayer for today will center on that transparent person just getting out of my face...for good. A long trip down some raging rapids with a strong current would be nice also. I don't think God will adhere to that request but the getting out of my face part I'm sure he can handle.


At least with these type of people you are never surprised by their actions. Funny thing is I've been kind of 'warned' by several people about this person. My response was "I already know," they weren't telling me anything I didn't already know. I told y'all I was an observer. I can only watch for so long till you get on my damn nerves that's for sure.

God can fight my battles. I'm sitting this one out. No need for raised blood pressure this early in the morning. I am NOT trying to be Madea, but if I need to be....that side still exists.

19 Nov 2009

Raatid!!!

  • Why am I on the laptop in bed @ 6:52am eating pizza??
  • I have a job interview @ 11am and need to leave the house by 9:30am?
  • I haven't even prayed over this job interview. I can do that in the shower. I get a lot of my best praying done in the bathroom.
  • I have NOT read over the job spec or my CV/resume to familiarise myself with my past positions.
  • Why am I so last minute DOT COM???
  • Why did I just take a break from blogging to dip the crust in garlic sauce???
  • Why do I procrastinate so.....???
  • Why am I deh pon Facebook???

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?

20 Aug 2009

How In The Hell Does This Work Again???

Blogging that is....?

I'm sitting here stumped on what I could possibly talk about.

I don't watch the news, I have no friends pissing me off to vent about...so what in the Sam Hill am I going to say??

**CRICKETS**

Errrrr....gimme a moment!!!

9 Aug 2009

I Think It's Time....

To get back on the blogging bandwagon again.

I really do....

Man have I missed this side of the World Wide Web!!!

17 Jun 2009

I'm Either Real Busy Or Getting Real Old

  • I have never heard the Birthday Sex song.
  • I didn't know Jamie Foxx sang 'Blame it on the Alcohol' until he guest appeared on American Idol.
  • I found out I'm a Celebrity USA was on via Facebook status messages.
  • I've never heard 1 song of the Drake dude.
  • If it wasn't for Twitter I wouldn't have heard D.O.A either.
  • I had no idea Michelle Obama was here in London for a whole week the other week. NO IDEA!!!
  • I don't know who's pregnant. Trying to get pregnant, or has delivered in celebville.
  • I only know about Iran through Twitter. My TV has been off and I don't read the papers.
  • I have no idea who Rihanna is dating/rumoured to be dating.
  • Has anyone died recently....I know about David in the closet in Bangkok.
  • Is Obama still President?
  • What's all this about Letterman apologising to Palin.

2:57am I'm out!!!

13 Days Feels Like An Eternity...

...Not posting a blog for 13 days feels more like 1 years I swear!

I think I have been busier since not working that when I was working. *sigh*

I'm trying to get to THAT stage. You know where everything is taken care of to the point where all you gotta do is clean your house and wash dishes.. It's always something.
Well what's been going on with me....hmmmm a lil of this, a lil of that. Trust me there are some elements of LD's life that she likes to keep private.

But main thing is I'm alive, here and surviving, as well as living on Twitter as usual.
  • Booked a £1 each way flight to Oslo, Norway for October. Came to a total of £12.
  • Competitions are my 'new' thing. Won 2 yesterday. I entered these ones with the intention to give them to my parents. Apollo Theatre to see Carrie's War [my mum is a theatre nut, she's dragging dad along] and Cricket at the Oval for my dad next Saturday. He's never been to a live cricket match, he's 75 and a cricket fan...bless him.
Got a couple of new gadgets...on the Blackberry (4th one) Bold, and just had a Compaq Mini 700 netbook delivered today. It's still in the box, that's how busy I've been. *rolls eyes* I bought it primarily to get cracking, and back on track to writing my first novel. If anyone comes up in here talking about the crusty Curve, I will scream. I'm a BB snob. Whatever the top model is out at the moment I will get it. I want my 3G/HSDPA dammit. It's amazing at the folks who have an opinion on what phone YOU get with YOUR money. [Well this one is free *thanks T-Mobile...as usual*] but I'm paying the bills on it.

Back to the book...I'm not going to give anything away just yet, I want it all 'legal' n 'copyright protected' before I share a preview, but if you like my blog, then expect the same 'realness' in the book. It IS a novel. It's fictional but certain elements based on people I know/have known.

I'm gonna go as far and call it a 'female, Adulthood for the semi-professional/semi-pseudo ghetto sista (referring to the character there), with an element of, Spike Lee and Noel Clarke undertones in a book-and then some.'

Whatever you do, don't ask me when it's gonna be ready. I get real antsy when people ask me questions. If you paint, do music, write...whatever, it doesn't always flow. Some days your at it all the time, at others, weeks could go by before you get back into it again. Trying to be creative is difficult, and it certainly doesn't always flow the way you want it to. So if you ask me on a day where I'm not in the writing mood and the flow is taking a mini hiatus, it might be like prodding a sleeping bear.
I want it done and out more that anyone. This is my baby and I gotta get it right. But the netbook will definitely help. Sitting stationed at this desktop rarely gets my creative juices going, and when I travel that's when I get it, but no means to continue writing, so this will be perfect for me.

Don't worry about publishing either. I have all these elements sorted. It must the caffeine I've just consumed [warning people...don't give me any advice..what the hell do you take me for moments] Some days I like advice/help, others, just leave me the hell alone. I'm honest..you should know this already, no matter how weird it sounds.
I'm on a no cursing ban as well, I'm down to about 1-3 curse words a day now. I don't care if people don't think it's un-ladylike [I know when/where to use it/not use it]. Like cigarettes I actually enjoyed smoking and cursing [great stress reliever]. Giving up cursing is harder than the cigarettes, that's for sure. 18 months off fags after smoking since my teens, but the cursing isn't easy. I am, however coming out of cursing retirement to write this book. There is no way it can be clean, that's not what it's about. I would write a book for kids if that's what I wanted to do. Written by a Londoner, set in London. Londoners know about vulgarity. TRUST! They won't be shocked...nor the Irish...or the Scottish for that matter.
Anyhoot, just a rambled blog from me. I'm on self disciplined mode. A natural night owl who has to be in bed between 2-3am and up at 8am. It's hard. I'm used to going to bed when the sun rises and the birds are a tweeting.

I really need a moment to check out some of your blogs, I've been so lacklustre in catching up on my reading lately. **SCREAMS**
I will get there.
A Disciplined. Motivated. Determined. LD x
Whatever your quests are right about now, hope you're focused and on it.

26 May 2009

"I Talk Like This, Cause I Can Back It Up!"

You see what she [Beyoncé] has done? Got me blogging straight foolishness. I like this line and it's been in my head for the the longest.

Confession #2. After the concert I was jamming hard in my hallway to Diva and Single Ladies on straight rotation. Worked up a sweat and now at 3:54am am still up like a damn fool cause I have too much energy.

Damn that Bouncy Knowles!!

And no, I did NOT like the Ego video. What's up with the black n white themed videos for this album?

Trusssssssst!! I was poppin like a straight fool to Diva. I can move ya know. Whatchu know bout this right here? I didn't even know I could Crump/Krump like that! [depending on how YOU spell it].

15 Apr 2009

Hiatus? Not A Planned One Anyway!

Hey all!!

What happened to the days of me blogging 5 times a day? I don't even know myself.
I haven't forgotten about blogging, bloggers, or reading blogs, I just try to keep the online usage minimal because it's just that addictive and got a fair bit I need to plough through and get done before I get back onto the [work] market again. My Blackberry and using Twitter on it are enough for one addiction though.

I never plan to be on a hiatus (only vacations). Nor make announcements saying I'm taking one. To me I feel that's a lil conceited, cause most times...no all of the time...I don't give a damn when people up and take a break from Facebook or anything else on the net for that matter, and make a huge announcement about it. Like we are sitting here caring. And as much as some of you like my blog and tell me so [thanks as always], I'm not so into me to think I'm on blog celeb status and have to make announcements to my 'fans'. PUH-LEEEEZE!!

The only time you'll know about me taking a blog break is
(a) When I'm going on vacation and even then, I'll try and blog from wherever I am.
and
(b) I'm done blogging FOR GOOD. And that'll never happen.

I will be back to my regular online blogging self soon. Being opinionated with a 140 character limit (on Twitter) is not always the best way trust me!

I got a ton of blogs to catch up on myself, a few of em yours! Oh and if you pass by and read my blog and happen to be on Twitter drop me a comment right here with your username and I'll follow you, as long as you're not a prick making rude comments or anything of that ilk. (I see ALL comments as soon as you press the button via the BB)

Mine is @LondonDiva look forward to following you and being followed. [How stalkerish is that?]

Toodles for now. x

BTW does E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E. XOXO because of that Gossip Girl show now? Get original please!

18 Mar 2009

Body Odour & Your Ethnic Background

Hengish Cooper was Twittering away with regard to someone who has a BO problem. I asked my co-workers "if you smelt would you want me to say something about it?" They said yes.

Well y'all know me, LondonDiva will talk about things most people wouldn't, or do behind closed doors

My co-worker who is white said Eastern Europeans smell really bad

I said "Musty like."

He replied "Yeah."

Me: "Well to be honest some white people do smell musty. I've noticed different smells for different ethnic groups."

I went through my small list
Whites smell musty when dry, like wet dog when wet
Blacks like soup
Indians like curry


Yeah, yeah, yeah some people may be offended. Who cares. If you smell like curry, must or soup. Guess what? You smell like curry, must or soup.

I have been on the bus and smelt black folks before I've seen them, so pungent I'm gagging to the point of breathing out constantly. THAT.IS.NOT.AN.APHRODISIAC.IN.LONDON!

GET A ROLL-ON ROLLIN ON UNDERNEATH THAT ARMPIT STAT!!

I'm not saying EVERYONE smells like soup, must, or curry, some folks have no pungent BO at all. But when that BO hits OH MY DAMN you can fit that stench into pretty much one of those three categories.

And trust I am NOT being biased, I have smelt some Jamaican men smell of soup AND must combined. And no they were not mixed race!

Also with the curry smell please tell me how you can smell of curry like it's a bottles EDP fragrance. We Jamaicans use Indian curry powders in our cooking, I've never smelt any fellow Jamaican smell of curry goat and rice, ackee and saltfish, yam and green banana. So why do a lot of Asians smell of Garam Masala?

I know we are in a global recession, but soap costs around £0.50 a bar, and that's for NAME BRAND Dove if you can't stretch to shower gel.

And not every smelly person has a medical issue to cause them to smell, the same way every fat person doesn't have an thyroid condition.

12 Mar 2009

And This Is The Very Reason I Started This Blog!

My lovely friend Hayley asked me to not let it spoil my day. The MJ ticket 'drama'. **See below**

I told her I'm over it now! Which I am. [Thanks for your concern Hay]

I started this blog because everything I saw that annoyed me I wanted to speak about it, whether it be that dumbass girl I see on the train wearing her night time headscarf thinking it's cute, to the way women and men interact [or don't] with one another. I also love to recommend things [and help out people] when I can, so thought why not jump on the blogville bandwagon.

Some people have therapists, others [me] have a blog. I get it out and off my chest. I don't care how controversial or demure it may be. This is MY haven to say MY piece any which way I feel, curse words [without fear of being banned from a forum] n all. I hate being restricted! Maybe that's why I spend less time there now.

I can scream, shout, holler, and be grateful, thankful and blessed whenever the mood takes me.

I'm over it, because I have it out of my system. So don't worry Hay, once it's on here I've gotten it out and feel much better. When I check it, and more importantly myself. Stress levels are extremely low bordering non-existent. I don't care about the repercussions, I say how I feel, whenever I want and whoever wants to get vex, can do just that get vex…I go home with NO worries NONE at all. And if I do, I pray for it to be turned over to God and ask for some peace and solitude. I never let it get to the point of consuming me that I can't eat, makes me ill or can't sleep.

I didn't expect readers. I didn't even expect a following. But I do and I'm grateful. Some may agree with me, others don't *shrugs* you're entitled to that. This was just for me to publicly vent, help, recommend and assist [and still is].

So if people want to tell me at some point to "get over it" [not referring to you Hay]…chances are as soon as I hit that submit button…I already have.

**KMT** - Kissing My Teeth!!

Remember I told you guys about the Michael Jackson tickets yesterday?

Right, well if you don't know here's the bullet point version for ya.
  • Michael Jackson announced 10 shows in London @ The O2.
  • Pre-Sale tickets went on sale yesterday @ 7am.
  • 2 million people tried yesterday to purchase tickets. 2 MILLION!!! Each show has a 23,000 capacity.
  • In order to get Pre-Sale tickets you had to register online.
  • I registered, and passed on the URL to folks I know.
  • Pre-Sale codes were given out [think of it like a lottery]. Not everyone got one.
  • I got a Pre-Sale code. If you didn't have one you couldn't purchase tickets.
  • My co-worker didn't get a code.
  • My intention was to buy 4 tickets and sell them ALL [donating a portion to charity]. I have no intention of going to the concert.
  • I tried at 7am no luck. I go to work tried a little after 9am got 4 tickets.
  • She wanted to go, so I said OK if I get 4 you can have 2 [at face value]. *Dumb fuck LondonDiva*
  • You have 5 minutes to decide whether you want the tickets once they are allocated on Ticketmaster.
  • Co-worker is fine with the seat location [upper level tier 4] the highest level in the venue.
  • Money is exchanged she has her 2 I have my 2.
  • Fast forward to this morning she's not happy with her seat location, will sell those 2 and try and get General Release tickets tomorrow.

OK here's why I'm pissed. My sister tried 3 times over x amount of hours yesterday trying to get tickets. She had seat allocations 3 TIMES and was booted out EVERYTIME!! I tried for her today and can't get any. My other friend Hayley was trying HARD to get tickets yesterday [she eventually got some after a few hours on her Pre-Sale code].

Then I hear she's selling the two she got on my Pre-Sale code [you were allowed a max of 4 tickets per person]. **HEAD TILT TO THE SIDE AND FUNNY DOG NOISE THAT IF TRANSLATED IN ENGLISH WOULD SAY "HUH??"** I was thinking hell no. So you're gonna look to profit on tickets which were my intention to do so anyway on my code or could have sold them to my sister? I offered to get them on my code because...well....she didn't have one.

Moral of the story....next time get 4 fucking tickets and give 2 to my sister for her and her boyfriend. I could have used my Pre-Sale code for someone else that's content where they're sitting. BE GRATEFUL I took some mercy on you yearning to go and used 2 out of my 4 spots. There was 5 minutes to say no. 5 minutes yeah!!

"It's like saying thanks for getting me 2 tickets on your code, I'm now gonna sell em on and make some change, even though I know that was your original intention from when the shows were announced."

Sorry y'all, if the role was reversed I personally wouldn't have sold on the tickets having been given the opportunity to get some on their code. Especially when they didn't have to.

No one talk to me today I am NOT in the mood, especially now my sister and her boyfriend have to contend with how many millions from around the world clogging up that blasted website tomorrow. My sister's cool with it. But from my point of view...NAH!!!

I'll keep trying on my sister's Pre-Sale code though...

22 Feb 2009

What A Lovely Weekend!

Oooh it was eventful. I spent a lot and ate a lot that's for sure. I managed to work right up until 8pm [the same time we were told to get to Carbon] and was umming and ahhing about going. Part of me wanted to go home and just clean the house, get organised, another part of me wanted to have a few drinks, shake my ass and literally shake off the week and the mini-drama from Thursday.

So whilst I'm working/e-mailing my friend and flabbergasted at just how much she gets approached and goes on dates, I'm whining that I have to travel 5,000 miles before anyone approaches me [it never happens in London for me]. I'm packing up my things ready to go. Just me and two others on the derelict floor doing the late shift till 11pm. I hear my name whispered from behind me and I swear for a split second I thought I heard Jesus call my name. I got shook just for a second. I turn my black ass around and find the cutest guy in the whole of the company [in my opinion] trying to catch my attention. Poor thing, he went out for a few drinks and couldn't contain himself and had to tell me with his Dutch couraged up self that he likes me...OK awkward moment.

#1 never listen to a man under the influence, even if slightly, although...
#1.5 a lot of truth can be exposed under the influence, but...
#2 he's involved [no go area]
#3 this is the workplace. I've done the whole [real extra] flirting and outside the office communication before. **Looks at ones self in disgust**

It's sweet he felt the need to stand there gushing and complimenting me and telling me the hard faced LondonDiva was not at all that comes across when he speaks to me etc etc etc. I told him he won't remember this on Monday, but I'll e-mail him from across the office to remind him just how he embarrassed himself. And why do guys feel the need to tell me this like they've just discovered the Holy Grail, that "I know under that tough exterior you're really a softy." Ummm I know that and have no trouble in telling folks. Typical Cancer hard exterior soft on the inside. Oh I am sweet, kind, caring, loving the works. But cross me and oh my goodness, I do not play. I don't mince my words, will tell you about yourself and threaten you with an ass whoopin if need be. Don't confuse the situation. Piss me off and you better find the emergency room pronto! But I may, just may, give you a hug when I've calmed down in about 3.5 years. I hold a grudge like a mutha!

After that I hot foot it over to Carbon and get a lil tipsy. I decided tonight was the night I was going to have my first shot of Patrón [coffee flavoured]. HELL I needed a shot of something. I don't do wine or beer. Spirits and hard liquor is more my thing. £14 for a shot WHAT????? Fashogi told me it's $35 a bottle in the US. PISSED is not even the word...

AWW HELL NO *just checked online* that Café Patron is £26 online **whips out debit card, but puts it back after remembering all of the weekend spending** And you know at £14 a shot that damn shot glass is in my kitchen right now].

Don't ever come in my house looking for wine, you won't find any. I like drinks that BEFORE you drink them you know will F you up. I'm prepped with Rum. I was prepared for Patrón. Wine is like a mugger down a dark street, just creeps up on you from behind and whoops your ass. I don't like wine cause it deceives you. Rum tells you straight. Tek tomorrow off, if you drink mi, mi will drunk you!! I feel violated after wine. Like a cheap one night stand. Waking up with pure regret in the morning.

Myers Jamaican Rum and Champagne are the only alcoholic beverage you'll find in here AND YOU BETTER BE SOMEBODY TO BE DRINKING THAT [my stash] IN MY HOUSE. I know NOTHING about wine and don't confess to, that's why I don't drink it and as mentioned above. I have champagne preferences and will only drink Myers Jamaican Rum. Finding that in the UK **shakes head** is tough in the US it's in practically every bar. I can only find it in the black area off licences. **Whispers** I'll be adding that Patrón to the list now of home alcoholic beverage staples, and Fash upon your recommendation I WILL BE trying the Silver.

But....that [shot] plus a glass of this and a few sips of that from other people [on an empty stomach] and I was well on my way to having a good night. I stayed till about 2am and caught a ride with a friend's friend back home. Come 3:30am after some hot chocolate and soup I was 2 inches of my forehead away from the floor asleep whilst [sorta] watching Girlfriends. I didn't realise I could contort my body like that sitting up. I had a great time getting a tad wasted [I never usually condone it but I usually save the drinking for vacations. I only drink around people I know and where I never have to make it home alone on public transport]. I danced till I hurt, and just had a great time. I'm glad I made the effort to go out rather than go home. There's birthday drinks at work this week. I have a rule. I don't do drink with the folks at work. I spend 40-50 hours with them a week. That is enough time around non-black folks. If I have time to be socialising with them I can be using that time to socialise with friends/family that I don't see as much. I may make the effort this time. I said may!

Saturday was a two meal affair. For those that don't know I hit 30 in July, and my friend in May. We're celebrating the birthday in Vegas on June 12th, buying a gift for ourselves every month and dining out once a month for the whole of 2009. Basically we're celebrating this new milestone for the whole year. We didn't make the most of 18 or 21 and we sure as hell aren't waiting till 40 for the next biggie!

Saturday was Mrs H's turn for the restaurant pick. 140 Park Lane...yes that's the name of the restaurant at the Marriott on Park Lane. I ALWAYS check out the menu before I go and I wasn't impressed by the choices. Although that was Friday when I looked, this was Saturday I'd woken up totally mash up slightly hung over and had no time for breakfast, had to shower, get ready and go. Thank God Saturday was sunny because I needed my sunglasses for something other than sun [feeling bruck], and a chance to wear my new Fendi's [and low and behold Mrs H was wearing hers too]. I opted for smart casual, silk Vanessa Riley blouse, my favourite slim Pia jeans, cropped cape jacket, long leather gloves, Betsey Johnson red patent leather tote with gold accents, tan suede flats with gold chain accents and a HANGOVER. It was too early to dress like I was going out to dinner, but decided on a Saturday casual-Esq attire instead. I did the heels the night before and the thighs were not up to it today. It seems like they weren't in flats either. I was hurting. Mrs H was on the same tip. She too had, smart jeans, silk shirt, cape jacket, and long leather gloves. As much as I wasn't feeling good I made sure I looked good and must have made an impression as a guy came up to me and asked me if I was a model. I am tooting my own horn.... Compliments are rare in London, and if you get one, blog about it, just to remind yourself it actually did happen!

Lunch was better than I thought. I ordered the wrong main though and should have gone with the seared venison. Mrs H did, but my starter crab and prawn cakes and my dessert Banana parfait were divine. I even ate the leafy salad ensemble on the plate with the crab and prawn cakes. It was drizzled in the most fabulous tasting dressing I've ever tasted. And if anyone knows me. I don't do salads or leafy green things. I would definitely go back for this alone. This is a restaurant that fools you with the portions, you know don't look that big but when you're done you're actually full like you ate KFC, McDonald's AND Burger King. I had that hangover hunger so I was HUNGRY!!! and was still full. Lord it was 3:30 by the time we finished and I had a dinner reservation at 7:30 for a family dinner at Beauberry House How in the hell was I to manage another three courses after this? I was full to the brim. I had pretty much, no time to do anything. I got home just after 5pm and my sister was coming for me at 7pm. Luckily come 7pm it felt like I was already beginning to digest the three course lunch.

Beauberry House was lovely. We had a really nice evening for my dad'd 75th. I love a nice dinner out with the family. It was the first time dad told us all about him coming over on the ship from Jamaica in 1959 on the Begonia and his partying days in London in the 60's. My dad was a baller back in the day. He was earning some serious money as a painter. He's never claimed benefit the whole of his working life. He came here to work and as soon as he arrived he got a job. I asked him why were tradesmen in dire need. He said the English people were too lazy, and it seems to this day nothing has changed. Look at all the Polish and Eastern Europeans that come here to do construction and other skilled labour jobs in half the time, a better job and less money than the English. Imagine that at the time rent for the room was £2 a week and my dad was earning that per hour. Houses were around £500, so it gives you an idea of in comparison just how much my dad was earning. I mean say your rent is £200 a week today how many people can say they earn the same in an hour as their rent is a week? Now I know why that house we lived in was so damn big. About 5 stories and how many bedrooms I don't know. Gwan pops!!!!

The food was good but I'm not sure if it was a case of I was already stuffed from lunch that I wasn't feeling my next three courses. Again I ordered the wrong main dish. I should have gone with the Blackened Miso Cod my sister had. Why does that always happen? You order but want the other person's dish? I couldn't even finish my champagne [which was VERY nice so much so I'm going to call the restaurant and find out just what that was and buy a few bottles] and desert so my mother gladly had that. She didn't miss a beat consuming my leftovers.

Man, my mother is real stush and very outspoken. She took offence to the woman next to us listening to her conversation about our late uncle and asked loud enough to hear if she'd like to hear some more. Oh lord that didn't stop her from commenting that the woman looked like she was dressed for Hollywood and the man came out in a shambolic looking sweater. My sister leaned over to me and said "now I know where we get it from." My eyes widened and indeed I was looking at myself in my mother. Sis was too. But it's not what she says it's how she says it which is so like us. Makes the comment ever so slightly whilst gracefully sipping on champagne. My mother is a trip. I'm trying to help my typically Jamaican father order from the menu. He hasn't got a clue about French or Japanese food. Words like Miso and Tempura are foreign to my dad. So every time I mention a dish

"Roy doesn't eat crab."
"Order the Salmon Roy you like that."
"No don't have beef we're having that tomorrow."

**Insert dad rolling his eyes and me trying to hold it down**

Of course after 28 years of marriage, dad has tuned my mother out and orders what he wants. [It was the salmon though] but it was his choice which was most important. I love my mum, but damn she is hard work, even when ordering a meal.

I took my main course home and finished that for breakfast. And as usual it always tastes better the next day. Service was slow though, that and no balsamic vinegar with the Olive oil for my bread. WHAT!!!! It's a good job I had my fix at the Marriott then. Balsamic vinegar and Olive Oil is a must have for me before I get stuck into a meal. I'm a lil piggy, what can I say. **makes note pick up fresh FANCY bread and balsamic vinegar tomorrow. None of this sliced Kingsmill lark.** I will eat it all night if I have to. I can't get enough. Plus I'm a carb fiend!!

Everyone headed back to my house and low and behold my dad was sick in my bathroom. He mixed his drinks at dinner. Lord Jesus! As much as I was concerned about my dad I thought please, not on the carpet. Luckily he didn't. Thank God! So when they all left just after midnight I called after 1am and asked my mum how my dad was. She said he was chilling downstairs in his robe with a Whisky. I had to laugh and shake my head at the same time. My goodness my father sure does love a drink.

Sunday I left that day to do everything I should have done, you know, laundry, cleaning. ME time! I wasn't as tired as I thought I would be after all that. I could have easily gone out again, but decided against it. We're one man down in the office this week and I know I have a busy one ahead of me. I gotta get my head down and get on. Although you know I'll always find time to blog [I hope], update my Facebook status on the Blackberry, and e-mail a friend or two [just a not as much as I'd like to]. As much as I'm going to make it in early tomorrow, I'm going to have a past 1am bedtime and watch this DVD rental. I don't even remember adding it to my list. It's called Waz and looks to be on the gore tip.

Sweet Lord have mercy!! What is it with me and the desire to watch gory films on a Sunday anyway?

All in all a good weekend was had. The weather is warming up a tad, it's getting brighter so hopefully there will be more of these to come!

18 Feb 2009

Awww Hell No!!

Is this a white thing? Must be, because JUST TODAY I had to ask my co-worker why the dog was all up on the couch and his newborn son leaning on the dog in the picture on his desk.

Call me overly ethnic, extra, whatever. I have seen this A LOT with white folks having the dog all up on or near the children. I could never imagine a dog in the house in my family or friend's homes let alone posing near newborns and toddlers like they are part of the family. All up on the bed and couch and in the kitchen. No! No! No!

To me that's just straight up nasty and unsanitary.

Look at the dog all up in the pickney's face?

**a real kiss teet moment**

9 Feb 2009

25 things...or Whatever?

Has anyone NOT receieved that 25 things people didn't know about you thingy over the past few weeks?

Talk about doing the global rounds.
I can't think of 25 things, and to be honest trivial or otherwise I don't think I'd want people knowing about me. I'm hardly a mystery, but still that kind of thinking requires some Ginko Biloba on my part and 8 hours of sleep to prepare to write the answers. Kudos to those that made it. It made interesting reading for me. I haven't got the energy, I really haven't. Right now I'm tired from eating pasta, what's that telling you?